Change Is Coming

I had a rough week this past week. Being energetically sensitive to all that is happening in the world these days can take a toll. In me, the symptoms of energetic overwhelm are fatigue and lethargy. I simply had no mo to jo.

I asked my Spirit Guide, Grandfather for some inspiration. This is what he said.

Grandfather’s Wisdom: Change Is Coming

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I Was A Drunken Monk

Many years ago, on an Easter Sunday at the Saint Paul Cathedral, I had my first past life memory. I was watching the priest and his altar boys coming down the aisle swinging an incense burner from side to side. At the moment that the scent of the incense reached me, everything changed. I was no longer seeing the church or the people sitting around me. 

I saw row after row of grapes growing on vines in the Italian countryside. The day was warm without a cloud to be seen and, the sun was low in the sky. I saw all this as if I was in a theater watching a movie. 

In the next scene, I was a big, round, and very fat monk checking on the grapes to see if they were ready for harvest. I could tell that I was happy in my life as a monk and a master winemaker. I sensed that I indulged a great deal in the wine I made. I was not old nor young, but my hair was still brown and was cut in a tonsure as the monks wore in the Middle Ages.

All of this information came in just a flash of knowing. It couldn’t have lasted more than a few seconds. This memory happened over 25 years ago, and I still remember it as clearly as today. This experience made me a believer in the theory of past lives. This is just one example of how we can discover our past life experiences.

Since then, I have had many other “memories” come to me in many different ways. We will explore numerous ways to retrieve memories in the November Discover Your Past Lives Workshop.  I hope you can join me.


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The Next Right Thing

There is so much confusion in the world right now that it can be overwhelming. This overwhelm can create a state of paralysis within us. We don’t know what to do, so nothing gets done. We may want to do “something,” but fear keeps us from moving forward.

Instead, we allow ourselves to become bombarded with news, information, YouTube, and social media that we get sucked down the rabbit hole, and before you know it, we are in even more fear.

I remember being in A.A. many years ago, and the Old Timers would say, “When in doubt, do the next right thing.” I still follow this saying to this day. This morning, I woke up confused and disturbed by the state of the world again. Then, I remembered these words, and I calmed down. I went and brushed my teeth, practiced some pranayam, and then wrote in my journal.

The next right thing is as simple as brushing our teeth. When that is done, ask what the next right thing is. Do that and then ask again, and so on. The next right thing always shows up when you ask. Give it a try, and let me know how it has worked for you.


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How to Choose Love

I was listening to this podcast from Tara Brach on fear. She said that love is bigger than fear. This prompted the following conversation with my guides.

Me:  How does my Love become bigger than my fear?  

Guides:  You start by relaxing the body. Take some deep breaths in and let the breath sink deeply into the body. Imagine that each inhalation is filling you up with light. Imagine each exhaling breath releasing all of the fear that has accumulated in your physical structure. As you focus on the breath, the mind will follow. Once the mind follows the breath, the body can sink more deeply into relaxation—this relaxation response is the container for Love.  

Love needs a container. You may say that that is not true but think about it from the perspective of your physical body. The physical body is a container. You place into it anything from the foods you eat to the ideas you think. The body contains all of what you put into it. If the container becomes too full from food or drink, you don’t feel well. With time, if you continue to overfill your container, your body can break down and become diseased.  

If your mind becomes too filled with fear, violent images, overthinking, etc., it too begins to wear down. Anxiety, depression, and other “mental illnesses” can occur as a result.

Fear is not natural; it is a construct of the mind. But, on the other hand, Love is natural and eternal. So, to answer your question on having your Love be bigger than your fear, breathe.

Me:  That seems too simplistic.

Guides:  It is very simple. The mind wants to distract you from breathing. When you breathe deeply, you automatically move out of the mind into Presence. It is in this space of Presence that you experience Love.  

Me: It sounds like the mind is the enemy.

Guides:  Not at all. The mind is simply a tool that is needed to bring you into duality. For that is the reason you have arrived here. You wanted to learn difference. You wanted to experience opposites. You wanted to evolve and grow. You wanted to experience Love through physicality. There is nothing like your earth plane in all of the Universe. Those souls who have arrived here at this time know (on some level) the honor they are being given to experience Life. On. Earth.

What a party!  


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Darkness is your candle

There is a quote by Rumi which says, “Darkness is your candle.” It reminded me that there could be no light without darkness and no darkness without light.

When I get caught up in fear, it is easy to forget that. Yet, those are the times when I need to take a deep breath in and fan the flames of my Inner Light. On the exhale, I can then breathe that Light back into the world.

Deep breathes calm the parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous system, our flight or fight mechanism. However, when we are constantly bombarded by fear either from the news or on social media, it is hard not to get caught up in the drama and traumas of the world.

If you feel overwhelmed, go on a walk or do this quick energy cleansing technique to reset yourself. And, remember to breathe.


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Energy cleansing technique

If you are feeling overwhelmed energetically from electronics or external noise (news, etc.), stand tall, wherever you may be, with your palms facing the Earth. Visualize all of that excess energy leaving your body and going into the Earth. This exercise does not harm Her, and it leaves you feeling more centered and less energetically cluttered.

You can practice this anywhere at any time. If you are standing in line give it a try. I learned this technique from the trance channel Summer Bacon.


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Anxiety or Intuition?

I got married over the weekend. The nights before the big day I couldn’t sleep. My mind was racing and I had butterflies in my belly. Since I was awake I had plenty of time to process whether I was being warned by my Inner Guidance System or whether this was pre-wedding jitters.

I thought about the other times I had such intense anxiety and was able to discern a difference in the quality of how it felt this time. Many years before I had been dating a man who was not good for me. Every time I would reach out to him I would get a cramping in my belly. I told myself it was just fear of putting myself out there when actually it was my intuition telling me not to go down that path. Of course, I did. Time and time again. Always ignoring what my body was telling me.

This time, there was excitement mixed in with the knowing that my whole life was going to change. I had never been married before and at 56 years of age that seemed a bit daunting to me. When I told my partner about it he reassured me that if I needed more time I could take it. I didn’t. I knew this was right because I could feel it in my body. There has never once been a feeling of don’t go down this path with him.

I believe there are many ways our Inner Guidance System tries to communicate with us. The body is just one of many. How does your Inner Guidance System talk to you? I would love to hear your stories.


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Radical Self-Care

Taking care of yourself is hard.

From a young age, I learned that idleness was frowned upon. The more productive you were, the more you were worth. I don’t think anyone ever said this to me out loud. But, it was the message I received non-the-less.

I posted on social media the other day how I used to feel guilty for napping. That somehow, I was weak or lazy for needing to rest. But, napping has become a necessary part of my road to wellness. So, I am fiercely protective of my naps now. I say that as if I had to wage war to be able to get a nap in. I did, in a sense, with myself.

Someone commented on that same post asking me how I stopped feeling guilty. I said I decided too. It’s that simple and that hard. My body didn’t give me an option to feel guilty any longer. My body’s needs superseded my old programming. The messages I told myself in the past about resting no longer held the power they once did.

It takes energy to feel bad about yourself. I no longer had any to play the guilt game. There are other ways I have learned to take care of myself during my wellness journey. I listen to my body in ways I didn’t before. I spend more time doing nothing. I am working smarter, not harder, for my business. I am slowing down in every way. And, in that slowing down, I find Presence.

I would love to hear how you take care of yourself. Has it been a process like mine, or does it come easily to you?


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My Last Option

It began in January of this year (2021). It started with a tingling in my feet. Over the next few weeks, it gradually moved up my legs and into my hands. I didn’t think too much about it at first, but it got a little bit worse each day. The pain in my hands and my feet would keep me awake at night. Ibuprofen wouldn’t alleviate the pain.

In February, I started to see the doctors. They ran every test imaginable: blood work, neurological tests, muscle tests, and MRI. Nothing showed up as being wrong. I stopped getting tested once they suggested a spinal tap. They diagnosed me with idiopathic neuropathy. Idiopathic means they don’t know the cause of my pain.

I also went to a naturopath, who diagnosed me with Lyme’s Disease. I thought this was it! I’ve had it before, and I know how to treat this. But, unfortunately, the treatment didn’t change anything.

In April, I went on Bioidentical Hormone’s thinking that some of my symptoms could be related to menopause. Once I started the HRT, I began to feel better . . . until I didn’t.

My symptoms began to get worse. I could no longer feel my hands and my feet. They felt as though they were amputated. My sleep was poor, and I had chronic fatigue, brain fog, nausea, and headaches. The list of symptoms goes on and on.

I intuitively knew that something I was eating created these symptoms in my body even though the doctors tested me for oxalates and Celiac Disease. When talking this over with my partner, he suggested I go on the Carnivore Diet as an elimination diet. I immediately agreed.

I knew that if I was going to find out what the culprit was, I needed to take out all plant-based foods and beverages. Within 24-hours of being on the elimination diet, I could feel my hands and feet again! I knew I was on the right track. However, once I could feel my hands and feet, the pain that the numbness was masking showed up. I had a hard time walking very far before my body couldn’t go any further. Even washing my hair and typing was an effort. Teaching six yoga classes a week became impossible.

The first three weeks on the diet were difficult for numerous reasons. First, my food choices are limited. Meat, water, and salt were all I had the first two weeks. On week three, I added eggs and a bit of butter. Next, I tried adding goat dairy and honey, but my food addict reared her head once I added the honey. I started to backslide physically and had to cut out the dairy and the honey.

Three days into the diet, my hypoglycemia and anxiety left. I didn’t even realize I had anxiety until I felt this consistent calm within me.

About a week in, my skin started to change. The skin on my neck became tighter, the crepey skin on my arms and legs lessened, and cellulite isn’t as apparent. I lost three pounds within a few days, which I think was water weight. Also, there is more fluidity in my joints. They had been stiff and sore for years. I thought it was due to the natural progression of age.

I am now into week five of this elimination diet, and I am about 50% improved. I still have a ways to go, but I am feeling better each day. I took off most of August from my teaching schedule so give my body time to heal. That immediately helped my body begin to recover. The time off has helped me see where I need to make changes in my work life.

There is so much more to share as I continue on this journey. I hadn’t realized the depth of my food addiction until I eliminated so much food from my daily life. But that is a post for another day.

I didn’t just jump into this diet willy nilly. I had done it before when I had trouble with my kidneys. I was feeling great on it, but during the year of COVID, my diet backslid. I plan to continue on this simple diet through the end of the year.

Here are some resources if you would like to dip a toe into the Carnivore Lifestyle.

Resources:

The Carnivore Code by Paul Saladino, MD

Dr. Ken Berry

Mikhaila Peterson – How she cured her arthritis with a carnivore diet

Dr. Shawn Baker


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From Addiction to Self-Love

I’ve never posted anything like this before. Showing my body is not something I would ever do in the past. Primarily because of body dysmorphia and shame. I have hidden my body and reviled it for most of my adult life. This past year I set out on a journey to heal my body image issues and my food addictions. I feel as if I have done both.

Do I do it perfectly, or do I love myself every day? No! But most days, I can feel and see my beauty. I am becoming more grounded in my body as I become stronger through lifting weights. I manage my food addiction with a regular structure that I follow steadily, if not always gracefully. The structure gives me peace, and exercise makes me feel at one in my body instead of separate from it.

Not being fully in my body made it impossible to be present in my life. The standards of perfection that pervade our world sets us up for self-loathing and perpetual dissatisfaction. This striving for perfection distracts us from the more important aspects of our soul journey, mainly self-awareness and self-love.

I am proud of how far I have come in the past year. That is why I can show you these photos that are very vulnerable for me. It’s been about 15 years since I’ve permitted myself to wear a bikini. I have never allowed myself to be photographed in one before. Thank you for witnessing my journey.

I am in the process of creating a coaching experience for anyone interested in body love and weight management. Message me here if you are interested.


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Guest Post: Choose Your Hard

By Jack F.

Jack Flynn has been working on his personal recovery for the last 37 years. He is active in 12 step programs and a participant in Kundalini Yoga for Addiction led by Della McGee. He can be reached at jackf1983recovery@gmail.com

Seven months have gone by since my battle began against heart disease. My issue was to lose weight! The weight I gained was a result of overeating food. Because I was hungry? Maybe, but I believe I was nurturing myself. Food was comforting. How was I ever going to give it up? I wrestled with the choices I had to face.


One evening, while trying to get away from it all, I was surfing the net. I came upon a posting on TicTok, called “Choose your hard.” You can quit drinking, lose your drinking buddies and start a new sober path. Or you can continue to drink and continue down the path to self-destruction.


This posting lit up my awareness of the present moment. I could continue to eat the foods of my choice and battle with the ravages of heart failure. Or I could get serious about learning how to eat a healthy diet.


I thought to myself, “Why can’t I do this?”


My wife was supportive, which made the entire process much easier.


I have been on this path for seven months, and I continue to learn how to eat healthily and live with the discomfort of portion control. Some days I dread it. But I think about choosing my hard. I then remind myself of the path I have chosen and how good I feel by losing 30+ pounds.


“Choosing my hard!” is a difficult choice. Recovery for me has always been messy. There is no easy way. Each path is filled with small battles. But, I win most battles which is why I am here today!


But I lose some of those battles too. Then I quickly fall into the shame and depression cycles we all know too well. Then I remind myself of all the issues that arise from being obese. And I start back on my chosen path again!

Choose Your Hard

  • Living a healthy lifestyle is hard
  • Staying sober is hard
  • Marriage is hard
  • Leaving toxic friendships is hard
  • Being fat and feeling ill all of the time is hard
  • Living and acting out addictive behavior is hard
  • Divorce is hard
  • Hanging out with toxic friends is hard

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Surrender

I have been having to surrender a lot lately. My partner and I are remodeling one of the rooms in our house. By that I mean he is doing most of the labor. To work on this room, everything within it had to be moved to other parts of the house. As a result, our house is in chaos. I do NOT do well with chaos in my living space. I need order and structure for my mental health. Because that is not an option right now, I have had to practice surrender daily.

The word contains within it the word render. To render means to melt away. To stay peaceful I have to melt away the thoughts that are causing me anxiety. I do this through the long, deep breath.

The opposite of surrender is resistance. In yoga, resistance shows up as tightness in the body. Tightness in the body begins in the mind. When resistance shows up I have to ask myself, what am I fighting in my life that is keeping me from being my best self? What internal battles am I waging right now? Any battle I may be fighting is usually because I am resisting accepting my current situation.

When I feel the anxiety begin to build within me, I practice surrender—a melting away of what I am resisting. I breathe, go for walk or practice yoga. How do you surrender?


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Control vs. Structure

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Five weeks ago, my partner Mike asked if I would like to join him in a cut. A cut is a term in the weightlifting world to reduce calories for a specific amount of time to lean the body out. We had both gained weight over the winter. Mike did it intentionally to increase his muscle mass and me because of some hormonal challenges.

At first, I told him no. My reasons were because I did not want to have my identity based on how my body looked or how much I weighed. I have had body dysmorphia and disordered eating most of my adult life. After much thought, I decided to join him. Our long-term goals are health and fitness, and a leaner body assists us in reaching those goals.

I was able to change my mind because I have healed so much of my Not Good Enough Syndrome over the past few months that I realized that I could do this. My goal wasn’t necessarily a particular number on the scale. My goal was to feel lighter and leaner in my body.

Both Mike and I are people who work well within a structured routine. I want to stop here and say that control and structure are two different things. Control in the way I mean refers to rigidly trying to manipulate a change in a specific behavior or an outcome. Control has always contributed to binge eating for me. Structure is a guideline or systematic framework. Structure is fluid where control is inflexible.

The protocol that he and I chose to use is a fitness app called MyFitnessPal. Just a note that I use the free version and receive nothing from the company for talking about them here. You put in the amount of weight you want to lose or maintain, and it gives you a daily calorie count to reach your goal.

The most helpful decision we made was to create a daily schedule for our meals. We divided the calories up between 4 meals and a snack. We eat around the same time for each meal every day. There are exceptions to this, of course. Life happens.

This lifestyle change was incredibly hard the first 30 days as the body got used to this new structure. It takes that long to integrate new habits, so that made sense to me. Once the body adjusted to the schedule, the protocol became much more manageable. Mike has lost about 12 pounds, and I have maintained my average weight. I have noticed that my clothes are looser and my body looks leaner.

I have not binged once on this new schedule. I have stayed within my calorie range every day, give or take 100 calories in one direction or the other. I find this liberating instead of confining. I am not sure this would work for everyone. My personality digs structure. Not everyone does.

When I tried to control my eating, I was constantly in battle with myself. That battle would result in binging. There is no battle when I use the app to record my calorie intake. I have just so many calories to spend every day, so it makes me incredibly mindful of my choices. I have found that food tastes better. It could be because I am no longer engaging in unconscious eating.

Just like when I first entered A.A., I had to go to a meeting every day to maintain my sobriety. I need to use the app every day for the same reason. The decision to use the app is a lifestyle choice, not a diet. We eat whatever we want within the calories we have set for ourselves. I will keep you posted as I continue on this journey.


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Guest Post: The Promises

Jack Flynn has been working on his personal recovery for the last 37 years. He is active in 12 step programs and a participant in Kundalini Yoga for Addiction led by Della McGee. He can be reached at jackf1983recovery@gmail.com

Thirty-seven years ago, my life was upended with the loss of our twin babies, and shortly after, my four-year-old was severely injured in a daycare car accident where there was loss of life. She was in a wheelchair for 18 months with her jaws wired closed.


I spiraled into a deep sea of drugs and alcohol. My relationship with my wife and was in despair. We did what we could to survive that awful year, but she went her way in the end, and I went mine.


All I could feel was darkness; the” bottoming out” seemed endless. Each week a new low. My addiction took over my life, and there was no end in sight.
I went to a therapist, and he encouraged me to stop living this way. I tried to end my addictive ways on my own for over a year. Finally, I had to admit my powerlessness and joined Alcoholics Anonymous.


My first few meetings were painful and scary. I was filled with shame, but I had nowhere else to turn. A little voice in my head told me not to give up. I forced myself to attend AA meetings until “I wanted to go.”


I was always greeted warmly and never judged. I had difficulty comprehending a higher power, and a wise individual told me to look at the group as a higher power. This helped me become grounded. I found new friends within AA who embraced my new sober lifestyle. My life was changing for the good!


One evening I was reading the Big Book when I found The Promises. (pg. 83-84). Even though we read them out loud at every AA meeting, I never really heard them. The first promise reads. If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are halfway through. I pondered this statement for a few minutes and realized the page was talking to me.


My life had started to change. I was a better person, I was honest, I was humble, I was ready to make amends to the people I had hurt, I was more confident. My life was changing before my eyes.


Now here I am today. Thirty-seven years later of imperfect sobriety and daily living. I have accepted the fact I continue to make mistakes every day. But now, I embrace myself and make amends quickly. I am empathic to all living things. I attend my Kundalini yoga twice weekly and incorporate the yoga teachings into my life. I take care of myself every day. I pray every day to my Higher Power and ask for strength to be a conduit for the greater good and betterment of the whole.


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Insight

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Every Sunday morning, I teach a yoga class designed around a theme word. The word will “drop-in” to my consciousness either the day before or the day of class. I rarely know in advance what the word of the day will be. It’s always a surprise and an adventure to incorporate the word into the rhythm of the class.

When the word insight dropped in, I was struck by the fact that it is made up of two words, in and sight. I thought about the numerology of two, which are partnership, teamwork, and cooperation. I immediately felt that the word captured the essence of partnership with the higher self and the primal self.

According to the dictionary, the words mean this.

I first broke down the words in and sight.

In – used as a function word to indicate inclusion, location, or position within limits

Sight – the process, power, or function of seeing

According to the dictionary, the word insight means.

1 : the power or act of seeing into a situation : penetration

2 : the act or result of apprehending the inner nature of things or of seeing intuitively

Once I understood the meaning of the word, I knew how the class could unfold. To gain insight into a situation, we need to go within. How do we go within in? With the breath. Any time we breathe long and deep we can gain insight into a situation that may be troubling us. Breathing deeply brings us beyond our primal instincts and helps us tap into our higher self.

So, to gain insight breathe deeply.


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Waiting

In Melody Beattie’s The Language of Letting Go, she talks about waiting as an action. We often confuse waiting with nothing happening or being stuck. Waiting goes hand in hand with Divine Timing. How do we align our will with Divine Will? By waiting for clarity on how and when to move forward. How can we assist clarity in emerging within us? By breathing long, slow, and deep.

Breathing seems too simple of an answer. Yet, it is the most profound response to uncertainty. Breathing deeply shifts us out of our thinking mind and into our body. It is from this space that we can hear the whisper of our soul.


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Perfectionism

Are you a perfectionist? How has that been working out for you? I ask this because I know that my need for perfection has caused me much heartache in the past. According to Dictionary.com, the word means a personal standard, attitude, or philosophy that demands perfection and rejects anything less. In my case, when I am actively pursuing perfectionism, I am rejecting myself. Perfectionism is just one more characteristic of Not Good Enough Syndrome.

This is from the Online Etymology Dictionary.

perfectionist (n.)

1650s, from perfection + -ist. Originally theological, “one who believes moral perfection may be attained in earthly existence, one who believes a sinless life is obtainable.”

In both Hebrew and Greek, sin is an archery term meaning to miss the mark. We all miss the mark from time to time. The point is that we continue to pick up the bow and take aim. To become good at archery, you need to practice. The A.A. Big Book tells us that our recovery journey is progress and not perfection. Here is a quote from page 60.

Many of us exclaimed, “What an order! I can’t go through with it.” Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfect adherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.

Where are you today in your recovery journey? Are you able to pick up the bow and take aim? Are you ready to drop the need for perfectionism when you do?


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Stop Apologizing

If you are familiar with The Twelve Steps, you may think this is a radical statement. In Step Four, we make a fearless and moral inventory of ourselves.

In Step Five, we admit to a Higher Power the exact nature of our wrongs.

In Step Eight, we make a list of all those we have harmed and do our best to make amends to those we may have injured along the way.

In most cases, these are all powerful ways to begin our recovery journey.

If you are like me and have suffered from Not Good Enough Syndrome, these steps can lead us down a path of shame.

What do I mean when I say stop apologizing?

Stop apologizing for who you are. You are a human being who sometimes burns dinner. You may be someone who forgets to get the milk at the store. Some days you may need rest instead of doing the dishes. You, are human.

You are perfect in your imperfection.

Continue to take inventory and make amends when you have hurt another. Do not make yourself wrong for being human.

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How To Heal Not Enough Syndrome

I feel as if I have spent my whole life learning to believe that. Just when I think, “I’ve got this!” another thought of “not enough” rears its ugly head.

I have tried everything to heal this most of my adult life. I’ve gone to therapy, practiced yoga and meditation, recited positive affirmations, etc. Those methods would work for a little while, but the negative beliefs would eventually seep through.

Lately, my body has been trying to get my attention by showing up with idiopathic pain. Idiopathic means the doctors can’t find a source for the pain.

I’ve been dialoguing with a friend who suggested that my body is trying to tell me something. They thought that “something” might be around my belief of not being enough. That resonated. As I mentioned, this is not my first rodeo with this issue. This belief has been a lifelong journey to wholeness.

Maybe the problem is I keep revisiting it. Perhaps it’s time to be done with it once and for all.

I decide in this now moment.

I. Am. Enough.

Who wants to start a revolution? Right here. Right now.

We are all enough!

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Go Gently

One of my students turned me onto the Hazeldon app called Letting Go. The April 1st message is quoted by Melody Beattie from her book Language of Letting Go.

Go easy. You may have to push forward, but you don’t have to push so hard. Go in gentleness, go in peace.

Do not be in so much of a hurry. At no day, no hour, no time are you required to do more than you can do in peace.

Frantic behaviors and urgency are not the foundation for our new way of life.

Do not be in too much of a hurry to begin. Begin, but do not force the beginning if it is not time. Beginnings will arrive soon enough.

Enjoy and relish middles, the heart of the matter.

Do not be in too much of a hurry to finish. You may be almost done, but enjoy the final moments. Give yourself fully to those moments so that you may give and get all there is.

Let the pace flow naturally. Move forward. Start. Keep moving forward. Do it gently, though. Do it in peace. Cherish each moment.

This message got my attention on so many levels. I’m a rusher. I rush through my day like I am on fire. Or as if someone is chasing me. The voice of my mother in my head not to be lazy pushing me to do more. The constant anxiety of feeling like I am not doing enough. As a result, I never enjoy the journey.


This message slowed me down. The suggestion of moving gently through my day made me weep with possibility. Who would I be if I moved slowly through my day? The devil on my shoulder says you will never be enough. The angel on the other shoulder says, “Ah, but let’s take a chance on peace.”

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Fear Is Seductive

I watched a Youtube video by Elizabeth Peru the other day, and she talked about fear being seductive. I invite you to sit with that for a moment and see if that is true for you. I know it got my attention. I can get caught up in the world’s drama and forget that my nervous system is being affected by engaging in the news, dark television shows, too much social media, etc. We are constantly fed fear which in turn breeds more fear.

These behaviors get us overly excited, and constant excitement can be addictive. Boredom can drive us to want even more excitement.

As recovering addicts, we look for stimulus in new ways, forgetting how certain behaviors like engaging in social media, doom scrolling, and binge-watching Netflix can negatively affect our serenity.

I don’t believe that we need to eliminate these things from our life completely. I believe balance is the key. Balance can be a hard nut to crack for people like us. We tend to be all or nothing.

I encourage you to “check-in” with yourself before you engage in any activity. Will this action, for instance, watching the news, or a television show, affect you positively or negatively? Ask yourself, am I avoiding being with myself by my time spent on social media? This is far from a perfect solution, but it can start redirecting your energy to more peaceful pursuits.

Feel free to share with me your thoughts and/or suggestions around this topic. We can all grow from each other’s wisdom and experience.

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Trauma & Addiction

In this video Dr. Gabor Mate describes the connection between early childhood trauma and addiction that many mental health professionals miss. Let me know if you want more of these types of resources.

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Our Energetic Boundaries and Addiction

I recently taught a yoga class where I asked the students to become aware of their bodies’ physical boundaries. Our physical body is the container that holds our spirit. The idea was if we could become conscious of our physical boundaries, then we could take the next step of learning about our energetic boundaries.

All living things have an energy body or an aura that encircles their physical structure. From a metaphysical perspective, it can appear as if we are surrounded by a large egg made of light and color. This egg is our protection. When our energy body is strong and expanded, we are healthy and vibrant. When this body is weak, we are vulnerable to other people’s energy and dis-ease.

Our addictions weaken our energy body. Let me repeat this. When we engage in addictive behaviors, it weakens our protective, energetic boundary.

Envision this. You are at a party, and someone walks up to you and begins a conversation. They keep stepping closer and closer to you, and you keep stepping back. They are “in your space,” but there seems to be nothing you can do about it without seeming rude. The reason someone can invade your space so readily is because your energy field may be too close to your body, weak or thin.

How do we strengthen this field and therefore reinforce our energetic boundaries? Imagine you are standing in front of you with a large eraser. Visualize yourself sweeping the eraser from side to side from top to bottom just an inch or two from your body. Use the eraser on your right side and then your left. Now move to your back body and erase anything that does not belong in your auric field. Do not forget to erase above your head and below your feet. The eraser will know what “stuff” needs to go.

You may notice other people’s thoughts in your field or old wounds from the past. You might “see” debris or even rips or tears. Your eraser melts all of that away. When you have completed this exercise, fill your energy body with light or a color of your choosing. Doing this will reinforce and strengthen your energy body even further.

When our energy field is weak, we have a more challenging time honoring the boundaries we have made for our recovery. A weak energy body weakens our ability to commit to self-care.

Addictive acts are not the only way the aura becomes weak. Constant self-criticism or abuse can also take a toll. And, there are other ways to strengthen your auric field as well. Kundalini Yoga is my go to ‘getter done’ practice.

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The Body: Our Sacred Altar

As I was teaching my yoga class this past Sunday, we reflected on the body as a sacred altar in which the Holy Spirit resides. I am not referring to the traditional Christian definition of the Holy Spirit. What I mean is that each of us has a spirit for which our body is the container.

When we look at this from a recovery perspective, we can see how our addictive behavior disrespects our altars’ (body) sacredness. I am one of those people who have altars in just about every room. An altar can be a small space dedicated to a Higher Power, your ancestors, or your connection to the natural world. An altar reminds me of my connection to All That Is. Mine often includes feathers, bells, candles, stones, and incense.

When I think about my body as a Sacred Altar, I approach it in this way. I dress in a way that uplifts me. I feed my body with nourishing foods. I exercise to strengthen and maintain its flexibility, and I rest when needed.

Do I do this perfectly? Hello no! Yet, I do the best I can. All you need to do is start where you are at. Every day is an opportunity to honor our sacred altar anew.

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How To Trust Yourself

If you have a history of addictive behavior, as I do, you might feel that trusting yourself does not come easily. I know how you feel. Time and time again, I have succumbed to the pull of my addictions. You may ask, how can I ever trust myself with my history of (fill in the blank)?

The key, for me, is to get quiet. Becoming quiet can be difficult, though. My ego-mind likes to keep me distracted from hearing my Inner Voice. It wants all of my attention.

Here are some ways that I have used to become quiet and listen to my heart speak.

  • Get out in nature. Go for a walk. Hug a tree. Sit by a lake.
  • Get creative. A simple coloring book will take you out of your active mind and bring you in into the present moment where wisdom lives. Gardening, photography, and painting can all be useful tools as well.
  • Exercise!  I use exercise to stay fit but mostly to quiet the mind and get me into my body. My favorite is my rebounder (mini-trampoline). I put on some rock and roll and bounce all the unruly thoughts out of me.
  • Breathe.  Long, slow deep breaths can bring you into your body where you can hear your higher wisdom more keenly.

Once the mind slows down, drop into your heart. The heart is where your Wise Voice lives. You can trust this Voice. How do you know you can trust it? Ask yourself how the message feels in your body. Are you feeling doubt or rightness? If you feel a rightness, this is your body’s internal navigation system telling you it is safe to follow through. This way of deep listening takes practice. I promise you it will be worth it.

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Impermanence or This Too Shall Pass

I am reading a book by author Kevin Griffin entitled Buddhism & The Twelve Steps. This book is a daily reflection with thoughts on dharma and recovery. I was looking for something outside the box of the traditional 12 steps that I learned in A.A. and came across this gem.

The February 9th reading is about impermanence. I have been struggling with some unresolved health issues lately, and I have been afraid. When I am in fear, I binge eat. As I reflected on this behavior, I was reminded through this reading that the one thing I can count on is change, even my behaviors. When I look at change in this light, it takes the shame out of my binge eating. I know this behavior is something I want to shift in my life, and I am taking action towards that goal. I trust that I can and will change because change is inevitable. This, in turn, gives me hope.

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Meditation for Self-Healing

This meditation cultivates self-healing. It supports the health of the reproductive and urinary systems. It develops healthy intimate relationships and helps one overcome addictions and codependency.

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What Are You Really Craving?

Have you ever craved something and stopped to ask yourself, is this what I truly want? Most of us don’t ask the question. We will follow the craving, whether for food, alcohol, drugs, etc., hoping to satisfy it. According to the Buddha, it is our desires that are the cause of our suffering. If you have addiction issues, you know this to be true.

What if you stopped yourself the next time an impulse rises and asked yourself, “What am I really wanting or needing here?”

Think about this. What if your sugar craving were about wanting more sweetness in your life? What if your longing for a cigarette was to put up a “smokescreen” for some reason. Maybe your craving for drugs or alcohol is your desire to shut out the world around you.

There are many reasons that we crave dangerous substances or act out in unhealthy ways. Some of it is a physical addiction, but it can also be something else. Are we lonely, so we fill that hole with our drug of choice? Perhaps we want to soothe ourselves or escape from life for a little while, so we binge watch Netflix for eight hours straight. There is nothing wrong with wanting to feel something different, but maybe the tools we’ve used in the past need to change.

What To Do Instead?

Getting a massage or some bodywork can fill the need for physical touch. Instead of going after that second or third cookie, try being completely present with the experience of eating the first one. You would be amazed at how fulfilling a single cookie can be when we experience it in the present moment.

Exercise is a great stress reliever. I go for walks whenever I can. When I can’t go outside I jump on my mini trampoline while listening to my favorite music. Journaling or talking things out with a loved one is another tool I use on a regular basis.

Yoga and meditation have been a staple in my life for many years now. I attribute the practice of Kundalini Yoga specifically to my mental wellness.

Community is key to keeping us on the road to wellness. When we have community we have support. When we have support we have hope. When we have hope we become open to change. Try a 12-step group near you. The first time I stepped into an A.A. meeting I knew I was home.

What tools have worked for you on your recovery journey? I would love for us to share our experience, strength, and hope with each other.

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Hope

“We began to realize that we needed help beyond our own thinking and actions in order to solve this problem.”

The Twelve Steps for Everyone

My disordered eating was getting out of hand. I was feeling bloated and uncomfortable in my body with strong leanings towards self-loathing. I would have streaks of binge eating and then restrictive eating. Back and forth, back and forth. I remember lying in bed one night and praying to the Powers That Be that I needed help. Trying to do this on my own wasn’t working.

As I surrendered, the Still Small Voice Within reminded me how Kundalini Yoga had helped me in the past. I took a break from that technology for the past couple of years, and it was time to revisit this yogic system. The next morning I got up, and I found a meditation for addictions and began practicing it every day. I felt immediately better, more in control without being controlling.

I remember 31 years ago, when I entered my first A.A. meeting, how the people there immediately accepted me. It was that acceptance that gave me hope that I could get sober. I knew the same would be true this time around. That is why I created the Saturday morning Kundalini Yoga class for addiction recovery. It isn’t enough to just do the yoga and meditation. I needed community. The sharing after the yoga portion of the class is what gives each of us hope for recovery. When we can share our experiences with one another, we know that we are not alone. That is the beginning of our healing. There lies our hope.

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Loving Kindness Meditation

The definition of Loving Kindess is tender and benevolent affection. What if you could send that affection towards yourself? What about sending that Loving Kindness to someone you adore? Now send that energy to a neutral person. Someone you may not know very well. Now send that energy to someone you have difficulty with.

This meditation will give you an opportunity to send Loving Kindness to all of these people. It is a great tool for healing and transformation. I hope you like it.

Let me know how you like it.

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Acceptance

“We admitted and accepted that we had a problem that we could not resolve by ourselves – and repeated attempts to resolve it only made it worse.”

The Twelve Steps For Everyone

Over 30 years ago, I stepped into my first A.A. meeting. I was frightened and felt very much alone. I knew I needed help. I had finally accepted that my drinking was a problem.

For the first two years of my sobriety, I went to 5 to 7 meetings a week. The community I found there helped me stay sober. The 12 steps helped me discover why I drank.

I was staying sober but I wasn’t getting mentally well or emotionally happy. 15 years ago I found Kundalini Yoga. This ancient yogic technology works on so much more than the physical body. It had such a profound impact on my life that I became a Kundalini Yoga teacher a year after my first class.

Recently I began to have issues with unconscious eating, binge eating, and negative body image. I once again had to surrender and ask for help.

My Inner Voice reminded me that Kundalini Yoga has a yogic solution for almost every problem. I got back on my mat in a more intentional way. I immediately found relief by practicing a meditation to heal addictions! I knew that people out there could benefit from this technology, so I created a weekly class for addiction recovery.

But practicing yoga wasn’t enough. I knew that what had helped me in the past was community. So I invited the participants to share their experience, strength, and hope after class. And they do!

We start each class with a kriya (set of yogic exercises), followed by a meditation for addictions. I then give a “recovery talk,” after the talk, we hold space for each other to share whatever is on their minds that day. This class has been instrumental in keeping me committed to recovery.

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