The Unknown

Boardwalk at Prentice Park Ashland
Photo Credit: Della McGee

The Unknown beckons me.  “Do you want to see what awaits you on the other side,” She asks?  “Yes!” I cry, as I put one foot in front of the other. . .

Will I be swallowed up in the Great Mystery.  Or will I be birthed into something new?

 

 

What We See In The Mirror

Archer Pose
Photo Credit:  Linda S. Reed

If you are anything like me when you look in the mirror you don’t take in the whole image.  It’s hard to do, actually.  The eyes tend to gravitate to what we perceive as flaws instead of seeing the beauty that is undoubtedly there.

A friend of mine recently took some photos of me out in nature.  For the first time in a very long time, I could see the whole me.  I could see the strength and power in my body.

This photo shows that I am a woman with curves.  My programming (media, advertising, etc.) says that people with this many curves are not attractive.  I’ve recently begun a practice of self-love and it is helping me, along with this photo, to be more comfortable in my body, more accepting.

I like that I am beginning to inhabit my skin instead of disparaging it.  Drawing on the strength that years of yoga and meditation have built I can be a light that shines through the social constructs of what “they” say beauty is.  I am creating a new program of self-love and self-care that is dissolving the old messages of “not good enough”.  This is my mission and I choose to accept it.  Would you care to join me?

Read more about Della’s mission here.

Falling In Love Again

Della's Meditatin MatSince my boyfriend and I broke up a year ago my self-esteem has been in the crapper.  Unconsciously I had decided my worth was based on whether or not he loved me.  Yes, I know this doesn’t make much sense and many people wiser than myself would tell me not to think this way.  Yet, I believe this is a very human condition.  We eartlhy creatures are constantly looking to others to tell us we are o.k.

This past week I went back for a visit to the city where he and I spent so much of our time together.  Every where I went I could feel him in the memories that we shared.  I realized that it wasn’t him that I was missing but the feeling of being in love.  When I was in love with him I felt beautiful, sexy and wanted.  I think that is the reason that it was so hard to let the relationship go.  I simply didn’t want to give up those powerful feelings.

During my stay in the Cities my friend Elizabeth Fritz, who is a Soul Art Facilitator, brought me through a process that helped me find myself again.  The journey we took that day with art and meditation made me realize that the most important relationship I have is the one to myself.

The image that you see above is part of the painting that I made during the Soul Art process.  The eye is my eye,  looking at me with the eyes of love.  It is a reminder that it’s time to fall in love with me again.   And, that my worth can not be determined by someone else’s actions or opinions of me.

Mat from behind 2This painting is actually a meditation mat.  I use it every day during my yoga and meditation practice.  It reminds me that I am my own beloved.  In the image below you can see that there is a crown in the upper left hand corner.  That is so I remember that I am a noble woman and to carry myself as such.  My name Della means noble.

The image on the right represents all the many spiritual paths I have been on that have always led me back to center.

My take away from this journey is that the greatest gift to Self is Self Love.  And, the surest way to lose my way, is by expecting another to validate me.  I am on the road to falling in love again. . . and its with me.

Check out the playshop Elizabeth and I will be offering in June.  You too can make your own mediation mat through the process of yoga and soul art.

A Girl Needs Her Stuff!

rehost-2016-9-13-80d58f78-b5a0-4be0-8d9b-d4e2014e9618In the past week I have been unpacking and organizing my new home in Ashland, Wi.  Yet, I haven’t been able to feel completely settled because half of my stuff is still sitting in my old apartment in the cities.

Yesterday, my housemate and I drove down to pick up the rest of my stuff.  Only, things didn’t work out exactly as I’d planned.   We had picked up a ladder for a friend first, not realizing just how much space it would take up.  I had a melt down once I understood that I wouldn’t be able to get all of my belongings in to the truck.

I surprised myself with my level of reaction to the situation.  I have always prided myself on my minimalist nature and my emotional response to the situation blew me away.    I was able to express my disappointment and frustration to my friend and that helped to calm me down.  Once I settled down I realized a couple of things were going on.  One, I didn’t trust that all was going to work out in the end and two I hold a belief that owning things makes me feel safe.

“A thought is harmless unless we believe it. It’s not our thoughts, but our attachment to our thoughts, that causes suffering. Attaching to a thought means believing that it’s true, without inquiring. A belief is a thought that we’ve been attaching to, often for years.”
Byron Katie

I have been telling myself this past week that once I get all my stuff around me I can finally settle in and all will be well.  I know the truth has little to do with my possessions holding any kind of security for me.  I am glad I will be able to pick up the rest of my belongings (emphasis on longings) next week.  I really want to have my stuff around me and there is nothing wrong with that.  But I do understand that my pain around this came from attachment to those things.

To find out more about Della click here.

 

 

 

I’ve Got This

af41c724f51bb97447794e045a07a73fLast night I dreamed I was riding on a bus with my boyfriend Hugh Jackman.  I felt the need to go for a run so I jumped off the bus and careened down this hill onto a path that led into the woods.  Once on the path it went from daylight to darkness.  These woods were very creepy looking.   I had been here many times before and I remember how frightened I had been each time I arrived at this place.

This time it was different.  I wasn’t afraid.  I leaned down to pick up a small stuffed animal that was laying on the ground and my surroundings immediately became illuminated.  I could see that the forest was still very scary looking but I had no fear.  I knew I had been here before and that I always made it through to the daylight again.

On the other side of the forest was a room filled with homeless people.  They were listless and stared off into space.  I offered them rice crispy treats and they perked up and seemed happy.

When I awoke I immediately knew this dream was a message from my subconscious that “I’ve got this”.  I have been here before and I can do this.  “This” being the major move I have just made.  Yesterday I moved from the Twin Cities where I have lived for the past 30 years to Ashland, WI.  In many way’s I’m entering the unknown (dark scary forest).   But I have the light within me to see me through to the other side.

I feel the homeless people represent how many of us seem lost right now.  The work I do offers sustenance (rice crispy treat) and reminds us of the sweetness of life.

I would love to hear any insights you may have to this dream.  Please feel free to share your interpretation with me here.

 

Two Roads Diverged In A Wood. . .

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Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
~Robert Frost~

I have lived in the Twin Cities for the past 30 odd years.  In a few days I will be moving to Ashland, WI which is on the southern most shore of Lake Superior.  I will go from living alone for the last 3 years to having housemates, from big city to small town, from sirens blaring all hours of the night and day to relative silence.  I’ve been thinking a lot about what changes I want to make in my life once I move.  There are some practical things I know I want to accomplish like getting my debts paid and being in nature more.  But there will be other changes that will occur much more organically.

As I said, I will be living with other people. These wonderful visionaries truly want to make the world a better place.  Living with people is a bit frightening for an introverted sensitive soul like me.  It means playing well with others and not hiding in my cave as I am want to do.  At the same time it is incredibly exciting.  I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will be forced to grow.  It is hard to have mirrors when you live alone.  We can only truly see ourselves by our reflections.  These beautiful souls that I will be living and working with will be my mirrors.  This is an opportunity, albeit a scary one, to see myself in new light.  When you live alone you get used to the mirror being foggy.  It is easy to disregard what you see as imagination.  There will be no more escaping myself as I will be with people every day.

Most of all, I want my heart to heal.  It has been broken for a very long time now.  I recently sent out a newsletter informing my friends and clients of my move.  The response I’ve received has been incredible.  So many of you have expressed how happy you are for me and how it feels like this move is the “right” thing for me to do.  I’ve had several people even mention the sadness they’ve seen me carrying.  I thought I was hiding it better. . . see what I mean about the mirror being foggy?

I also sense a slowing down of my entire being once I get settled in my new home.  I am the master of the “busy”.  Every thing I do is quick.  I rush doing the dishes, brushing my teeth, eating, walking, etc.  You get the idea.  Being busy and rushing to and fro is how I have traditionally dealt with anxiety.

This anxiety has increased tremendously over the past two years.  It is partly due to my precarious financial situation, partly due to living right in the center of a busy city and being energetically sensitive, and partly due to not getting out into nature as much as I had in the past.  Nature has always been the balm that heals me body, mind and soul.  And, to be moving next to one the greatest lakes in the world will feed me in so many ways.

I intend to find my light again.  It has dimmed with the grief that I have let consume me this past year.  I saw a glimmer of that light co-teaching  a Body & Soul Art Workshop this past weekend.   My friend Elizabeth and I combined art & yoga for a whole day workshop.  It was truly fantastic.  Two of my great passions combined in one day.  It reminded me that it is possible that your work can also be your play.

All in all, I am looking on this move as a grand adventure and as an opportunity to heal in ways I hadn’t allow myself before.  I plan on sharing my new adventure here on this blog.  I know it will be extraordinary.   And, I will be returning to the Cities regularly to teach workshops and see private clients.  Stay tuned!

How Decording Can Help You Let Go

letting-go-1Has a relationship ended yet you are still haunted by it?

Do you have thoughts that don’t feel like they belong to you?

Has a friendship outlasted its time but you don’t know how to gracefully let go?

Do you fall into the same roles in your family dynamics over and over again no matter how old you are and how much you’ve grown?

These are symptoms of negative energetic attachments (cords).

I first heard about decording when I was in my twenties.  I was stuck on a guy who wasn’t stuck on me.  You could say I was obsessed with this man.  I knew intuitively that traditional therapy wasn’t the route I was supposed to take.  I went to a psychic instead.  This wonderful woman taught me the process of decording.  Once I decorded from this man I was not bothered with the obsession again.

It was during the decording process that my psychic gifts appeared.  They were buried deep within myself waiting for an opportunity to come forth.  Decording is what awakened them.  Not everyone will have a dramatic response like I did.  You may feel a sense of freedom and relief after you decord though.

Each of us connects with one another on an energetic basis every time we interact.  When we smile at someone on the street we energetically connect.  Those connections are loving and do not affect us in a negative way.

When we are in deeper relationships those connections (cords) become stronger.  When the relationship dissolves those connections can stay intact and then start to drain us, energetically and physically.  Sometimes the relationship is with a child who keeps taking and taking.  You may not want to end the relationship but you may want to change how you relate to one another.  Decording can help you do that.

Benefits of Decording:

  • find relief from haunting thoughts
  • reclaim you sense of self
  • re-establish healthy energetic boundaries with the people in your life

Please consider coming to Della’s Decording Workshop on Sunday, April 30th.  Email me at della@innerpeacemovementstudio.com to register.  I have one on one decording sessions and telephone sessions available as well.  Find out more here.

For a full picture of Della’s healing services visit her website at www.innerpeacemovementstudio.com

I am Woman

I wrote this a few years ago. . .

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Scan 17I stand
on my feet
grounded

centered
in my be-ing

Gathering Strength
and Breath
and Life
in my
breast

Heart beating
with wild
abandon

Never forsaking
myself
for another

Never forgetting
I am Woman

About this painting:  I am currently using acrylics on canvas to explore the chakra system through my painting.  This painting reflects our first chakra.  I’ve entitled it “standing in her power”.  Please email me at della@innerpeacemovementstudio.com if you are interested in purchasing the original painting for yourself.  To find out more about my services please visit me here.

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Kale Salad

photo-11 – bunch Kale
2 – shallots
1/4 c. – pumpkin seeds
1 tbs. – honey & ginger salad girl salad dressing
1/4 c. – golden raisins
Braggs Aminos (an use coconut aminos for paleo)

Chop kale into bite sized pieces.  Massage 1 tablespoon honey & ginger dressing into the kale and let sit.  While the kale is resting chop shallots and sautee in a bit of olive oil.  Once the shallots are caramelized add pumpkin seeds to the pan.  Let the seeds brown.  Add some Braggs Aminos to taste.  Add the shallot and seed mix to the kale.  Stir in raisins.  Serve.

My favorite past time is creating new recipes.  My other talents include intuitive readings, hands on healing and hypnosis for health and wealth.  You can find out more about me here.