On July 20th I turned 50. Believe it or not I have waited in anticipation for this day for the past year. I awoke my birthday morning and I knew everything had changed. I am not sure I can even explain how and I certainly don’t know why this change came to be. I just suddenly knew that I had arrived! I knew that I no longer had to live my life for anyone other than myself. Its as if a switch was flipped on and I could finally. . . be.
I now have permission to:
- live the life I envision
- not concern myself with what other people think of me
- nap . . . often and without guilt
- appreciate my curves
- say no
- make mistakes
You see, I have always put pressure on myself. I have never felt I was doing enough, being enough, healed enough, spiritual enough, fit enough, etc. You name it and I wasn’t enough. The last few days my “not enough” voice has disappeared. In her place there is a new voice. She says I am beautiful. She says I carry out exactly what I need to when I need to. She says I am powerful and capable. She says I am so much more than enough. . .
Again, I’m not sure why this happened exactly on my 50th birthday. It does make sense why I have felt anticipation for my birthday’s arrival this past year. Who wouldn’t want to let go of “not enough”? Maybe my soul programmed me to let go when I turned 50. Who knows? I just know I could weep with joy with the freedom I feel as a result.
I know I am moving forward into the best time of my life. I can’t wait to see where my adventures brings me.
Della is a psychic reader and intuitive healer. You can find out more about her and her services here.