One day, not too long ago, I was scrolling, yet again through my Facebook feed when I stopped to ask myself this question. What would I be doing if I were not on Facebook right now? These were my answers.
- creating recipes
I have known for a while that Facebook had kept me from more joyful pursuits. I just couldn’t seem to get myself to stop being sidelined. A couple of days after that original question I was scrolling, yet again through my Facebook feed when I found myself getting upset by posts that I was seeing. I was bored, angry and judgmental. I was finding that more and more often that was my experience. Once in a while I would be inspired by people’s posts but mostly I wasn’t enjoying myself.
You may ask why I didn’t just check Facebook once per day? Why not use moderation? Moderation isn’t part of my vocabulary. I have a very strong addictive personality. I’ve known this about myself for some time now. I knew if I were going to find any kind of balance I had to deactivate my account. Yes, I’m an all or nothing kind of gal!
It’s this kind of commitment that has kept me from drinking over the last 25 years and smoking for the past 23. It’s how I’ve gone gluten-free and sugar-free. Not every one needs to be as extreme as I am. I’ve met people who are social drinkers, smokers, etc. I really dislike those people. But I am not one of them. I know what works for me. I know how to bring wholeness back into my life. I have to remove things entirely to make change. I do not look at this way of being as depriving myself. It’s what I call extreme self-care.
It’s been about two weeks now and this is what has changed.
- I’m writing more
- doing more yoga
- creating awesome new recipes
- experiencing less noise in my head (yes, my brain seems quieter)
- feeling more joy
- being more productive
Encountering less energetic noise has been the most surprising part of this experience. I had no idea I was as sensitive to other people’s energies as I am through the internet.
This experience has actually inspired me to be more social with people in person. Not something this self-proclaimed introvert would normally say. Who’d a thunk?
Since deactivating my Facebook account in December I’ve had people tell me Facebook was how they were getting access to my blog. After hearing this I’ve decided to reactivate my account for the sole purpose of sharing my blog blog posts. This may change one way or the other as time goes on.
You can find me more active on Instagram.