“Do you trust yourself,” my friend asked? “No” I replied.
This conversation was several weeks ago and I don’t even remember what the context of the conversation was. I do know the question had a profound impact on me.
After that conversation I had to ask myself why? Why didn’t I trust myself? The answer lay with the child within. She didn’t trust the adult to take care of her. Why would she. I had abandoned her. I had ignored her voice. It wasn’t until recently that I had even acknowledged her.
The evidence of my life shows me that I have always been provided for yet the fear of not being so persisted. Fast forward weeks later and I find that the fear I have been living with my whole life has lessened. I still feel fear but I can go within now and know that everything will be all right.
How did She come to trust me? I had to consistently be there for her. Whenever fear would show up I would go within and imagine myself holding her. I had to show her time and time again that I would be there for her no matter what. Now, when something happens in my world I can feel that everything is o.k. It’s a different experience than I’ve had before. I feel safe. I feel loved. I feel supported. She feels heard. I am no longer in conflict with my inner child needs and my outer adult expression. We feel. . . One.
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