Are you feeling “off” now that the eclipse is over? I know I am. Leading up to the eclipse I was experiencing a great deal of fatigue and anxiety. Now that the eclipse is over I feel depressed and even more fatigue. The energy of the eclipse brought a lot of my issues to the surface. I had been happily ignoring them where they were buried.
Now that those issues are uncovered I have no choice but to face them. Yes, of course, there is always a choice, but do I really want to let those buried emotions come out of their hidey holes in inappropriate ways any longer? Nope.
I live in an old historic school-house and the building is quite large. I live here with many other people. The weird thing is that for some reason everyone but me left for an extended period of time and I am here all by myself. I live on the very top floor in the attic. My first night alone I was completely creeped out to be here by myself. I hardly slept at all and I was too afraid to go down stairs to pee in the middle of the night so I used a Tupperware container to relieve myself in.
The next morning I was able to get in touch with just how ridiculous my fear of being alone in the school was. I decided to see those night time fears as a metaphor for all the scary monsters in my unconscious’ closet. I haven’t peed in Tupperware since! The point is, my issues (monsters in my closet) are all fears, fear of being abandoned, fear of rejection, fear of not having enough money, fear of being alone, and the list goes on and on. Fear is what wants to be healed right now and I am going with it.
There is a huge physical response when you let go of something that no longer serves you. It is like a virus that your body is trying to purge. The symptoms can be very similar. In my case, the virus (fear) is still wiggling around in my body trying to find purchase. The eclipse was the microscope that found the virus and my intention to heal is the antigen that will bring me back to myself.
Fear isn’t the enemy though. It was created to keep us safe. Back in the day, this was necessary for survival. Fear told us when to run and hide from the giant saber tooth tiger that wanted to eat us. As humanity evolved fear took on a new role. It adapted to its new environment. No longer is it needed to warn us of saber tooth tigers. Now days fear tells us to be afraid of everything and everyone. It even tells us to fear love. Yet love is the only thing that can face fear and shine a light on the truth.
I am going to say this right here and you may wince when you read this. I still need my fear. I am not always paying attention and I want a warning if I am in harms way. I have a strong survival instinct within me and fear can help me stay alive. Where it gets tricky is knowing when you are in danger or just being afraid because you are afraid. This is where discernment comes in.
According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary discernment is the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure. The very nature of fear is obscure which means it’s hidden in darkness. Think about the moon hiding the sun during an eclipse. If the moon is our fears and the sun is our light then we can see how the Universe is giving us a metaphor that is impossible to miss.
How do we get to discernment? Here are some of the tools I use:
- I write every day. I have a 500 word a day practice. You can read about how I go about this here
- yoga & meditation
- Pranayam – you can’t hold fear in your body and breathe deeply at the same time (wise words from my first yoga teacher)
- music – mantra music really works well for this
- connecting with nature
- move your body – walking, dancing, tai chi, etc.
- long, hot baths
- anything that gets me out of my head and into my heart.
This message isn’t about eliminating fear. It is about using fear to our advantage. I live in a world where fear thrives. That is the nature of living on this planet where duality is the theme. I don’t believe we are to ignore fear, or expunge it, nor deny it. The key to enlightenment isn’t the absence of fear but freedom from it. It is up to us to choose it.
Della is an intuitive reader, teacher, and healer. If you would like to find out more about how she can assist you with the eclipse blues click here.