Last night I dreamed my friend, Maureen and I were witches. Our mission was to annihilate those witches who were evil. We would pop into a place where a bad witch was and dispose of her. Energy would shoot from our finger tips, and the job would get done. We would pop, always riding on our broomstick, to the next bad witches location and do the deed all over again.
The very last witch in the dream was different though. When Maureen and I shot energy from our fingertips, she just stood there calmly taking it all in. She was quite beautiful and serene looking. I shouted at Maureen that we needed more power and this time flames flew from our fingertips, and the witch was consumed with flames. I was aware that we had not killed her though. I began to have doubts about our mission for the first time. How could someone so calm and serene be bad? She didn’t look bad, though I know looks can be deceiving. Most importantly, to a good witch like me, is that she didn’t “feel” bad.
Up until this moment I trusted that the Powers That Be who sent us on each mission knew what they were doing. Could they be wrong? It was at this point that I woke up. I was actually pretty excited at first realizing that I could fly and that I had so much power literally at my fingertips. Then I began to look for the deeper meaning in the dream.
Of course, I called Maureen right away and told her about the dream. Between the two of us we were able to see that the meaning of the dream had many different layers:
With great power comes great responsibility? Ben Parker, Spiderman’s Uncle – Always use discernment when using your power.
Just because someone tells you another person is bad or wrong doesn’t mean they are. Use discernment.
What is my mission here on planet Earth? Is it something I think I “should” be doing because of my spiritual programming or is it time to “discern” a deeper meaning into my life’s work?
I think more of this dreams meaning will reveal itself to me over time. I would love to hear any interpretations you may have as well.
As I consult the runes for wisdom this day, I hear Uruz inviting me to descend into darkness. This is not the dark night of the soul as in times past. I am called into the Womb of the Divine Mother. In this space, I am restored before the moment of rebirth.
I can rest here for a while as I wait on the will of heaven.
Black Panther came to me in a vision this morning. I was asking for Guidance around a particular issue around romance. I saw myself in a dark forest sitting by a fire. I was covered in furs and very much alone. She walked up to me and I began to weep. I didn’t want her as my guide. Black Panther has been with me before when I was living my life as a single parent. Panthers are very solitary and tend to raise their young alone. I am tired of being alone.
She invited me to join her up in a tree where I could look down upon myself from a higher level. I could see that I was lonely and my body felt like an empty shell. I didn’t know if this was how others see me or how I see myself. As the vision was closing she gave me a small stone made of hematite.
Afterwards, I looked up the symbolism in the vision. Black Panther represents the darker feminine energy of the moon. She is very grounding and protective. She teaches one to be alone but not lonely. She is very strong, graceful and independent. She reminds me to climb my symbolic tree and look at things from a higher perspective.
Hematite is a very protective and grounding stone much like the panther herself. It brings a sense of calm and deflects negative energy as its stone has a mirror-like quality. I bought myself a Christmas present after reading this. I knew I wanted a bracelet to wear to remind me of my Panther Medicine. Here is another message I received today:
You love so much that you don’t need anyone else’s love to make you happy.
~ Don Miguel Ruiz~
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While entering into an abundance meditation this morning Spider came to me. She showed me that building her web is the part she plays in co-creating abundance. There is no grasping or being greedy. She trusts in the process of life. Building her web is executing her plan. Laying in wait is trusting the Universe to bring her abundance.
How does this vision translate to the mundane world? I have been very busy spinning my web since I moved back to the Twin Cities a month ago. I have been planning new workshops for 2018. I started teaching a new yoga class in Hastings and another one will begin in January in Eagan. My nature would have me keep spinning more and more web but Spider is telling me that my plan (web) is ready. Spider says now it is time to trust in the Universe and allow the abundance to come.
This morning I was contemplating my life purpose. Wondering what it is all for and why am I here. When I posed the question to Guidance this morning they said this. Be the best human you can be.
Yes, but what does that mean, asked I? We can tell you what it doesn’t mean. You have been programmed to believe that your life purpose has to be some grand expression of self. It doesn’t. There was one Mother Theresa, one Louise Hay, one Buddha, one Jesus and only one You. All of these notable people have one thing in common. They were the best humans they could possibly be. That intention is going to express itself differently for each and every one of you. Sometimes it will show itself and the human will become well-known, like Wayne Dyer. Other times that expression will be quieter and only a few will ever see. When you think in this way your life purpose becomes clear. We understand your longing for more meaning in your life. That is the soul calling your best self to the surface. Once you can get past the idea that it has to look a certain way you will find peace.
During my writing practice this morning I reflected on how the energies that we are experiencing has felt much like a download. My Guidance jumped in to give me/us more information on what that means. Here is the conversation.
Della: What is being downloaded?
Guidance: More light into your DNA. That light is encoded with new programs to help you navigate consciousness more consciously. We know that sounds like a paradox but up until now, humanity has had access to only a small portion of their light. It may feel as if you are breaking your way out of a shell or even more precise a cocoon. The struggle has been real. The density you have been moving through has been very thick, much like trying to swim in honey. And, for some of you, it has even felt like quicksand.
Della: That is how I feel today. The energy feels so thick I can barely move.
Guidance: The energy isn’t thick, quite the opposite is true. You are breaking through your old programming (cocoon). But you are breaking through it valiantly. This can feel like heavy work. Once the butterfly emerges from the cocoon it is at first fragile and weak. It has to beat its wings to build strength into its body. The journey from the cocoon builds strength as well. That is what you are doing right now, building strength and preparing to fly.
Della: What do we do once we emerge from the cocoon.
Guidance:Humanity gets caught up in its wanting to “do” something. Rest a while before you take flight. You will be given direction. Don’t try to force your wings to be strong before they are ready. This is a time of integrating the new energy. You may feel tired. That is your body telling you to take some down time, rest, be still. Allow the process to unfold. Again, there is nothing for you to “do”.
I am guided here to tell you about some of the addictions/habits (old programming) that have been falling away from me this week.
Over Eating: I realized this week that I tend to eat out of boredom. Not only that but I would eat in front of my computer while watching Netflix. I made a decision to be present when I eat instead of eating distractedly in front of my computer screen. I noticed an immediate change in the quantity of food that my body needs and I feel leaner as a result.
Phone Use: What a distraction our phones are! I was always looking at Facebook, Instagram, my NPR app, etc. Even when I was bored to death of it I would still do it! The other day I deleted all those apps off my phone and I could immediately feel something shift. It was like a door closed on all the noise I was allowing into my energetic space. I have only been going on social media occasionally since and staying away from the news as much as possible.
These are addictions/habits that I have been working on shifting for years. What feels different this time is that instead of “planning” to let them go they just naturally fell away with very little “doing” on my part.
That is the beauty of the energies we are in right now. It is assisting us in letting go of what has been holding us back from being our authentic self.
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Are you feeling “off” now that the eclipse is over? I know I am. Leading up to the eclipse I was experiencing a great deal of fatigue and anxiety. Now that the eclipse is over I feel depressed and even more fatigue. The energy of the eclipse brought a lot of my issues to the surface. I had been happily ignoring them where they were buried.
Now that those issues are uncovered I have no choice but to face them. Yes, of course, there is always a choice, but do I really want to let those buried emotions come out of their hidey holes in inappropriate ways any longer? Nope.
I live in an old historic school-house and the building is quite large. I live here with many other people. The weird thing is that for some reason everyone but me left for an extended period of time and I am here all by myself. I live on the very top floor in the attic. My first night alone I was completely creeped out to be here by myself. I hardly slept at all and I was too afraid to go down stairs to pee in the middle of the night so I used a Tupperware container to relieve myself in.
The next morning I was able to get in touch with just how ridiculous my fear of being alone in the school was. I decided to see those night time fears as a metaphor for all the scary monsters in my unconscious’ closet. I haven’t peed in Tupperware since! The point is, my issues (monsters in my closet) are all fears, fear of being abandoned, fear of rejection, fear of not having enough money, fear of being alone, and the list goes on and on. Fear is what wants to be healed right now and I am going with it.
There is a huge physical response when you let go of something that no longer serves you. It is like a virus that your body is trying to purge. The symptoms can be very similar. In my case, the virus (fear) is still wiggling around in my body trying to find purchase. The eclipse was the microscope that found the virus and my intention to heal is the antigen that will bring me back to myself.
Fear isn’t the enemy though. It was created to keep us safe. Back in the day, this was necessary for survival. Fear told us when to run and hide from the giant saber tooth tiger that wanted to eat us. As humanity evolved fear took on a new role. It adapted to its new environment. No longer is it needed to warn us of saber tooth tigers. Now days fear tells us to be afraid of everything and everyone. It even tells us to fear love. Yet love is the only thing that can face fear and shine a light on the truth.
I am going to say this right here and you may wince when you read this. I still need my fear. I am not always paying attention and I want a warning if I am in harms way. I have a strong survival instinct within me and fear can help me stay alive. Where it gets tricky is knowing when you are in danger or just being afraid because you are afraid. This is where discernment comes in.
According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary discernment is the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure. The very nature of fear is obscure which means it’s hidden in darkness. Think about the moon hiding the sun during an eclipse. If the moon is our fears and the sun is our light then we can see how the Universe is giving us a metaphor that is impossible to miss.
How do we get to discernment? Here are some of the tools I use:
I write every day. I have a 500 word a day practice. You can read about how I go about this here
yoga & meditation
Pranayam – you can’t hold fear in your body and breathe deeply at the same time (wise words from my first yoga teacher)
anything that gets me out of my head and into my heart.
This message isn’t about eliminating fear. It is about using fear to our advantage. I live in a world where fear thrives. That is the nature of living on this planet where duality is the theme. I don’t believe we are to ignore fear, or expunge it, nor deny it. The key to enlightenment isn’t the absence of fear but freedom from it. It is up to us to choose it.
Della is an intuitive reader, teacher, and healer. If you would like to find out more about how she can assist you with the eclipse blues click here.
“Are you carrying yourself in a sacred way,” Grandmother spirit guide asked?
This is the question I reflect on every morning lately. It reminds me to take a deep breath, straightened my spine and say. . . Yes.
Yes, to life. Yes, to love. Yes, to me.
It also reminds me to love myself in a way I am unfamiliar with. To carry me in a sacred way means unconditional love of self. That means to love my body. To love my mind. To love my spirit. Accepting myself exactly as I am is what carrying myself in a sacred way means to me. What does it mean to you?
Do not be alarmed by the outcome of your election. Whom ever you voted for trust that the highest good is in store for the planet. You are not alone. Even the darkest of nights can hold the most promising futures. We invite you to look within and find the love in your heart. Change, in all its forms, is a good thing. You wanted change and you got it. It may or may not be in the human body you voted for but change is upon you. Embrace it. Now is the time to shine your light brightly. Now is the time to breathe deep, go within and love yourself. Change begins with you.
Here are some suggestions to “be the change”:
spend time in nature
connect with your animal friends
play with your kids
take long delicious baths
cook and share a meal with your loved ones
All of these suggestions are to bring you into the present moment. Fear is simply anxiety about the future. Practice Presence. It can be as simple as noticing the freckles on your child’s nose or smelling the fragrance of a flower. Any time you bring yourself back into the NOW moment you empower yourself. True power comes from within.
Remember the opportunity in every situation that occurs. What will you choose: Love or fear?
Della is a channel, healer, and hypnosis facilitator. You can find out more about her here.