While entering into an abundance meditation this morning Spider came to me. She showed me that building her web is the part she plays in co-creating abundance. There is no grasping or being greedy. She trusts in the process of life. Building her web is executing her plan. Laying in wait is trusting the Universe to bring her abundance.
How does this vision translate to the mundane world? I have been very busy spinning my web since I moved back to the Twin Cities a month ago. I have been planning new workshops for 2018. I started teaching a new yoga class in Hastings and another one will begin in January in Eagan. My nature would have me keep spinning more and more web but Spider is telling me that my plan (web) is ready. Spider says now it is time to trust in the Universe and allow the abundance to come.
That is the question Guidance asked me this morning. My answer. . .
Imagine me hemming and hawing and shifting from one foot to the other. The question made me uncomfortable. I couldn’t answer it definitively. Sometimes the answer is yes but mostly it is no, at least when it comes to money.
In working with my Spirit Guide of Money this morning it became clear to me that I am very good at manifesting money but have shame around not being able to keep money. Money seems to run right through my fingers. My guide assured me that is all in alignment with flow. She reminded me that there is always more where that came from.
My programming says that I must be doing something wrong if I can’t keep money. That same shame keeps me from manifesting more than just enough to keep me going from day-to-day. I was listening to The Ted Radio Hour and the musician Amanda Palmer was on. She gives her music away for free. Amanda and her band couch surf when she is on tour. People share their food with her. She has complete trust that she will be provided for. I admire that. Having complete trust in humanity is a rare thing these days. More than anything she trusts herself to manifest whatever she may need.
Giving up control like that frightens the shit right out of me. It’s that very control that I am wielding over my life that keeps me small. It keeps me from having more. Being more. Expressing. More. The first step to freedom is awareness. I am aware of how I have held myself back. It’s time to breathe and let go. That is the second step to freedom. . .
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