That’s the vow I made in a past life to the man I was in relationship for the past year and a half in this life.
I made that vow a very long time ago. Long before I met him this time around. I recently went through training to be certified in hypnosis. Because I was the only student in this training we could focus on the topics that most interested me. Past Life Regression was at the top of the list.
The beautiful Madonna Kettler, my hypnosis trainer, brought me through a past life regression so I could understand the experience more fully. We went into the regression with the intention that I would gain more understanding as to why I was struggling to let this man go. Past Life Regression can help one gain insight into current unconscious patterns that can show up to sabotage our lives.
During this regression I saw that this man and I were farmers in Ireland during the Iron Age. We were twin brothers and were very close. Being twins in another life explained to me why I felt so connected to him. In our life in Ireland he died of an infection and two days later I hung myself because I could not bear to live without him. That was when I swore that we would be together again and that I would never again let him go.
In this life we broke up at the beginning of this year. We decided to stay friends but he slowly stopped taking my calls and I never heard from him again. It felt very much like a death. My grief was like nothing I had ever experienced before. I would do really well for a little while and then the grief would start all over again.
After this regression I had a sense of peace and understanding of why I felt so strongly about this man. I could finally let go. . . or so I thought. The next morning my grief was more intense than ever! I reached out to him yet again asking him if we could still be friends and he, again, did not respond. I kept hoping that his non-response was a maybe. What ever his reasons he wasn’t able to give me the closure I wanted and felt I needed to move on. I had to do this on my own.
That vow I made to not let him go has been my prison. It has kept me grieving and still longing for connection with this man. I went out into the woods and talked to some of my favorite trees and asked for help letting go. I knew i needed to break the vow I made so long ago. It was keeping us both trapped in a prison of attachment. I could not fully move forward in my life unless I did this. So, I set my intention, and asked for help in letting go from my Nature Spirit Helpers.
I didn’t magically let go with a walk in the woods. Yet, that intention did bring me to getting another regression. This final regression helped me to understand even more fully the connection with this man and gave me the tools to release him. I feel free this time.
Not everyone believes in past lives. It doesn’t really matter because healing can still occur regardless of that belief. My unconscious was holding onto a pattern that was keeping me stuck. Even if I made all of this up, my imagination is helping me to see through metaphor how to heal. That is the beauty of past life regression. It makes the unconscious conscious and once that occurs we no longer need to be trapped by our unconscious behaviors.
Having this experience helped me make sense as to why I was grieving as long as I did. It also showed me why I had been unable to move on. I am now a certified hypnotist and am looking forward to helping many others find the answers they seek. Whether that be through past life remembrance, metaphor or symbology, this technology is a great way to tap into our unconscious for health, healing, and wholeness. You can find out more here.