Selfie #1

 

Selfie #1 - 4:28:18
Watercolor by Della

I have been working on self-love lately, and I came upon this idea to paint how I felt about me.  The first thing I placed on the paper was a big heart.  From there I just let my creative spirit guide me.

I feel as if the heart is a seed and that I have planted myself on rocky soil.  I am firmly planted though.  Even I can see that.  My puny arms are raised in the air letting the light in as much as I am able to.

I started exploring this because I have a life long habit of falling for unavailable men (rocky soil).  It has been two years since my last relationship, and I am getting closer to wanting to go down that road again.  I feel the inner work is necessary before I proceed any further.  My thin arms and legs tell me I am not yet strong in this self-love I am developing.  But the light that surrounds me gives me courage to continue the journey.

I’d like to create a painting once a month to see how I am progressing over time.  I’ll share those paintings with you here.

To find out more about Della click here.

Connect With Your Spirit Guides Through Art For Health & Wellness

My Heart is WholeI love to paint and when my friend Elizabeth Fritz invited me to connect with my Spirit Guides through the Soul Art Process I immediately said yes.

I have worked with many guides in many ways over the years but have never experienced anything like this before.  The Soul Art process is a technique that connects the individual to their subconscious self for wisdom and guidance. The beauty of this process is that you need no artistic skills whatsoever to have an enlightening experience.

My Soul Art journey was incredibly revealing to me.  What came forth onto the canvas wasn’t what I expected at all.  I came into the day wanting to heal some health issues I had been struggling with lately.  As you can see by the image above I painted a big heart.  The message from my painting is this:  the key to healing my health issues is to heal my broken heart.  I had spent the past two years recovering from the ending of an important relationship and my health suffered from the grief.

Elizabeth brought me through a series of exercises that freed my mind enough to allow creative guidance through.  The brilliance of the Soul Art Process is that it gets you out of your own way with such gentleness that you don’t even realize it is happening.

I have my painting hanging in my bedroom.  Every time I look at it I am reminded to tend to my heart.  I went through this process over two months ago.  Since that time my health has improved to such a state that I feel stronger and healthier than I have in many years.  I recently went to the doctor for a physical and I got all the tests they’d let me have.  I wanted scientific proof that what I was feeling about my health was real.  Other than a slightly high cholesterol level I am in excellent health.

This playshop is a great way to pair metaphysics with what you may already be doing physically to improve your health and overall wellness.  I hope you can join Elizabeth and me on March 10th for this special playshop.   Click here to find out more and to register.

Falling In Love Again

Della's Meditatin MatSince my boyfriend and I broke up a year ago my self-esteem has been in the crapper.  Unconsciously I had decided my worth was based on whether or not he loved me.  Yes, I know this doesn’t make much sense and many people wiser than myself would tell me not to think this way.  Yet, I believe this is a very human condition.  We eartlhy creatures are constantly looking to others to tell us we are o.k.

This past week I went back for a visit to the city where he and I spent so much of our time together.  Every where I went I could feel him in the memories that we shared.  I realized that it wasn’t him that I was missing but the feeling of being in love.  When I was in love with him I felt beautiful, sexy and wanted.  I think that is the reason that it was so hard to let the relationship go.  I simply didn’t want to give up those powerful feelings.

During my stay in the Cities my friend Elizabeth Fritz, who is a Soul Art Facilitator, brought me through a process that helped me find myself again.  The journey we took that day with art and meditation made me realize that the most important relationship I have is the one to myself.

The image that you see above is part of the painting that I made during the Soul Art process.  The eye is my eye,  looking at me with the eyes of love.  It is a reminder that it’s time to fall in love with me again.   And, that my worth can not be determined by someone else’s actions or opinions of me.

Mat from behind 2This painting is actually a meditation mat.  I use it every day during my yoga and meditation practice.  It reminds me that I am my own beloved.  In the image below you can see that there is a crown in the upper left hand corner.  That is so I remember that I am a noble woman and to carry myself as such.  My name Della means noble.

The image on the right represents all the many spiritual paths I have been on that have always led me back to center.

My take away from this journey is that the greatest gift to Self is Self Love.  And, the surest way to lose my way, is by expecting another to validate me.  I am on the road to falling in love again. . . and its with me.

Check out the playshop Elizabeth and I will be offering in June.  You too can make your own mediation mat through the process of yoga and soul art.

Two Roads Diverged In A Wood. . .

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Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

~Robert Frost~

I have lived in the Twin Cities for the past 30 odd years.  In a few days I will be moving to Ashland, WI which is on the southern most shore of Lake Superior.  I will go from living alone for the last 3 years to having housemates, from big city to small town, from sirens blaring all hours of the night and day to relative silence.  I’ve been thinking a lot about what changes I want to make in my life once I move.  There are some practical things I know I want to accomplish like getting my debts paid and being in nature more.  But there will be other changes that will occur much more organically.

As I said, I will be living with other people. These wonderful visionaries truly want to make the world a better place.  Living with people is a bit frightening for an introverted sensitive soul like me.  It means playing well with others and not hiding in my cave as I am want to do.  At the same time it is incredibly exciting.  I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will be forced to grow.  It is hard to have mirrors when you live alone.  We can only truly see ourselves by our reflections.  These beautiful souls that I will be living and working with will be my mirrors.  This is an opportunity, albeit a scary one, to see myself in new light.  When you live alone you get used to the mirror being foggy.  It is easy to disregard what you see as imagination.  There will be no more escaping myself as I will be with people every day.

Most of all, I want my heart to heal.  It has been broken for a very long time now.  I recently sent out a newsletter informing my friends and clients of my move.  The response I’ve received has been incredible.  So many of you have expressed how happy you are for me and how it feels like this move is the “right” thing for me to do.  I’ve had several people even mention the sadness they’ve seen me carrying.  I thought I was hiding it better. . . see what I mean about the mirror being foggy?

I also sense a slowing down of my entire being once I get settled in my new home.  I am the master of the “busy”.  Every thing I do is quick.  I rush doing the dishes, brushing my teeth, eating, walking, etc.  You get the idea.  Being busy and rushing to and fro is how I have traditionally dealt with anxiety.

This anxiety has increased tremendously over the past two years.  It is partly due to my precarious financial situation, partly due to living right in the center of a busy city and being energetically sensitive, and partly due to not getting out into nature as much as I had in the past.  Nature has always been the balm that heals me body, mind and soul.  And, to be moving next to one the greatest lakes in the world will feed me in so many ways.

I intend to find my light again.  It has dimmed with the grief that I have let consume me this past year.  I saw a glimmer of that light co-teaching  a Body & Soul Art Workshop this past weekend.   My friend Elizabeth and I combined art & yoga for a whole day workshop.  It was truly fantastic.  Two of my great passions combined in one day.  It reminded me that it is possible that your work can also be your play.

All in all, I am looking on this move as a grand adventure and as an opportunity to heal in ways I hadn’t allow myself before.  I plan on sharing my new adventure here on this blog.  I know it will be extraordinary.   And, I will be returning to the Cities regularly to teach workshops and see private clients.  Stay tuned!

Taking Flight

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Pastel by Della McGee

Done
with the
wasting away. . .

waiting for you

Moving forward

picking up the pieces
of my
shattered
heart

Pulling the ties
that bind us
to one another
tight

til they
snap!

No longer
tethered
to the
unknown of
you

I take flight

Painting & Poetry

To be completely honest, its been rough lately.  I have gotten to another layer of grief around the ending of my romantic relationship.  We were in the denial stage for the past few weeks and tried on the “lets stay friends” roles.  Nothing changed.  Of course, it didn’t.  We needed these past few weeks to realize that just because two people love and even like each other it doesn’t mean they are meant to be together.  That is what is so hard about this ending.  Neither one of us are assholes.  It would be so much easier if we were.  This has been the hardest ending I’ve ever had because of that reason.  There is nothing to be angry at him for.  I mean, I could find things if I really wanted to, and I have tried, but its not very honest in the long run.

I was talking to a friend last night and telling her how lost I am now.  I’ve always known who I wanted to be when I grow up.  The past 20 some years I’ve even lived some of that dream.  Now, I just don’t know. . . So, today, I did what I do when I just don’t know.  I wrote a poem and I painted.  The poem came from a place of deep sorrow and I wanted the painting to reflect the same.  That’s the beautiful thing about painting.  It becomes its own thing.  Painting comes from the heart and soul and knows more than the mind.  The wisdom of the painting tells me from deep grief a new life is formed, if we choose it.  I hope to have the courage to do so.

 

 

The QuickeningThe Keening

Voices,
keening on the wind.
Echoing.
Grief in my heart.
Breath.
Held in.
Body,
curled tight.
Not.
Understanding.
Why?

How Brokenness Is Beautiful

kintsugi+heartKintsugi is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with lacquer mixed with gold or silver dust.  “As a philosophy it treats breakage and repair as part of the history of an object, and not something to disguise.”  In our society we see something broken as unwanted or unlovable.  To me, the broken bits are the most interesting.

When we are broken we become unmade from the structures that formed us.  If those structures still worked we wouldn’t need to be broken open in the first place.  Pain and heartbreak are the gold and glue that creates something even more beautiful than what came before.

In the shattered heart lay our opportunities.  In our brokenness lay our possibilities.  In the beginning we aren’t often able to see this pure potentiality through the pain.  We need time and space and permission.  We need permission to live in the pain.  We humans tend to want to bypass the pain.  Let’s hurry up and move on.  In my experience, unless I am present with the pain there is no moving on.  I may think I have but the unresolved stuff will sneak up in the least likely moments and make itself known.

I have recently been through another journey of brokenness and have refashioned something extraordinary out of that pain.  At the time, I did not see how I could.  I’ve been through enough of these dark nights to know that the light always comes.  I didn’t know how but I did know that it would . . . and it did.

I invite you to see the beautiful in the broken bits of yourself.  Therein lies your magnificence.

Della is a healer, artist, writer, psychic and yogi.  Please visit her website here.

What Does Your Soul Colors Look Like?

Della's Soul Colors Portrait
Della’s Soul Colors Portrait

One day I decided to paint.  I have no formal training yet haven’t let that stop me.  When I paint from my mind there is a confusing mess ending up on the canvas.  When I paint from my heart . . .  I paint what Guidance speaks through me.

Here are some of the Soul Colors Portraits I have painted for clients over the past year.  If you feel called to commission one for yourself you can find out more here.

 

 

Soul Colors Portrait: River of Compassion

painting by Della McGee
painting by Della McGee

Deep within you runs a river of compassion.  On each side of your river are experiences yet to unfold.  One sides holds challenges that are yet to be reveal themselves.  The other holds the promise of peace and prosperity.  Notice that even the challenges contain the light.  It is through compassion that you can navigate the waters of challenge with ease.  Never forget that life is meant to be experienced through duality – both light and dark reside on each bank of your river.  Compassion is the key to balance both sides of your experience.

 

A Soul Colors Portrait is a personal maṇḍala for your use as a tool for transformation  When we meditate on our Soul or High Self we become more aligned with our Divine Purpose  Each portrait is painted in acrylic and measures 8″ x 8″.  Della tunes into your soul and paints from that space.  She then receives a written message from Guidance about the meaning of the painting.  Each painting is unique and is used here with the clients permission.   Click here to find out how to get your own Soul Colors Portrait.

Heaven’s Plea

painting by Della McGee
painting by Della McGee

My friend Michelle Kaye is a beautiful musician and composer.  She recently gifted me with one of the pieces of music she created called Heaven’s Plea.  This piece of music was created during the time she was living and healing from cancer.

I asked her if I could paint her something while listening to her music and she agreed.  This is the result.

To listen to a sample of Michelle’s beautiful music click here.

To find out more about Della and her healing services click here.