Word of The Day: Integration
Definition – combine (one thing) with another so that they become a whole.
When I tuned into this word I got an image of an infinity symbol. We often see ourselves as damaged goods and not as infinite beings. Our wounds do not make us less than. If we can integrate our wounds instead of hiding in shame because of them we can begin to see ourselves as whole.
I have been feeling shame because I still grieve the loss of my last relationship. The shame has me feeling less than whole. My Guides are telling me that love is never wrong. They have been inviting me to see myself as whole instead of full of holes. My intention today is to see wholeness in my sadness. When I can integrate all parts of me I become whole. I am Infinite.
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During my writing practice this morning I reflected on how the energies that we are experiencing has felt much like a download. My Guidance jumped in to give me/us more information on what that means. Here is the conversation.
Della: What is being downloaded?
Guidance: More light into your DNA. That light is encoded with new programs to help you navigate consciousness more consciously. We know that sounds like a paradox but up until now, humanity has had access to only a small portion of their light. It may feel as if you are breaking your way out of a shell or even more precise a cocoon. The struggle has been real. The density you have been moving through has been very thick, much like trying to swim in honey. And, for some of you, it has even felt like quicksand.
Della: That is how I feel today. The energy feels so thick I can barely move.
Guidance: The energy isn’t thick, quite the opposite is true. You are breaking through your old programming (cocoon). But you are breaking through it valiantly. This can feel like heavy work. Once the butterfly emerges from the cocoon it is at first fragile and weak. It has to beat its wings to build strength into its body. The journey from the cocoon builds strength as well. That is what you are doing right now, building strength and preparing to fly.
Della: What do we do once we emerge from the cocoon.
Guidance: Humanity gets caught up in its wanting to “do” something. Rest a while before you take flight. You will be given direction. Don’t try to force your wings to be strong before they are ready. This is a time of integrating the new energy. You may feel tired. That is your body telling you to take some down time, rest, be still. Allow the process to unfold. Again, there is nothing for you to “do”.
I am guided here to tell you about some of the addictions/habits (old programming) that have been falling away from me this week.
- Over Eating: I realized this week that I tend to eat out of boredom. Not only that but I would eat in front of my computer while watching Netflix. I made a decision to be present when I eat instead of eating distractedly in front of my computer screen. I noticed an immediate change in the quantity of food that my body needs and I feel leaner as a result.
- Phone Use: What a distraction our phones are! I was always looking at Facebook, Instagram, my NPR app, etc. Even when I was bored to death of it I would still do it! The other day I deleted all those apps off my phone and I could immediately feel something shift. It was like a door closed on all the noise I was allowing into my energetic space. I have only been going on social media occasionally since and staying away from the news as much as possible.
These are addictions/habits that I have been working on shifting for years. What feels different this time is that instead of “planning” to let them go they just naturally fell away with very little “doing” on my part.
That is the beauty of the energies we are in right now. It is assisting us in letting go of what has been holding us back from being our authentic self.
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“Do you trust yourself,” my friend asked? “No” I replied.
This conversation was several weeks ago and I don’t even remember what the context of the conversation was. I do know the question had a profound impact on me.
After that conversation I had to ask myself why? Why didn’t I trust myself? The answer lay with the child within. She didn’t trust the adult to take care of her. Why would she. I had abandoned her. I had ignored her voice. It wasn’t until recently that I had even acknowledged her.
The evidence of my life shows me that I have always been provided for yet the fear of not being so persisted. Fast forward weeks later and I find that the fear I have been living with my whole life has lessened. I still feel fear but I can go within now and know that everything will be all right.
How did She come to trust me? I had to consistently be there for her. Whenever fear would show up I would go within and imagine myself holding her. I had to show her time and time again that I would be there for her no matter what. Now, when something happens in my world I can feel that everything is o.k. It’s a different experience than I’ve had before. I feel safe. I feel loved. I feel supported. She feels heard. I am no longer in conflict with my inner child needs and my outer adult expression. We feel. . . One.
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