What Lies Beneath

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Photo Credit: Linda S. Reed

It’s been a rough week.  I’m back visiting and working in the Twin Cities where I have lived much of the past 35 years.  When I am in Ashland, where I currently live, I can pretty well stay focused on the here and now.  But when I come back to the place where so much has happened in my life grief is triggered.

During a recent yoga & soul art workshop Guidance came through my painting and said loud and clear that the grief I have been holding so dear is really fear.   It took me a couple of days to understand that on more than an intellectual level.   I really heard the message and wanted to honor the wisdom within so I made a commitment to let my grief go.  I ended up with a migraine for two days following that decision.  I had no idea that the grief I had been carrying was so toxic.

The more I let go the more I realize that my grief is keeping me connected to a relationship that is long gone.  Laying in wait for me under all that grief was a deep loneliness.   Now that I am face to face with that loneliness the trick is to not run.  In the past I would distract myself with social media or binge watching my favorite shows or my particular favorite, eating my self into oblivion.

What I’ve never done before is look loneliness straight in the eye and ask for its wisdom.  I am afraid it will consume me if I stand and face it.  Yet, running is no longer an option.  I don’t have the strength any more to avoid what is coming.  If I had faith in God this probably wouldn’t frighten me so.  But my faith died many years ago.  What I do believe in is Nature and its infinite beauty.  It’s this Force that I call on now as my trial awaits me.

I feel like Katniss Everdeen in the Hunger Games with her bow and arrows strapped to her back waiting to jump into the fray. . . I will survive this.

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Photo Credit:  Linda S. Reed

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How Decording Can Help You Let Go

letting-go-1Has a relationship ended yet you are still haunted by it?

Do you have thoughts that don’t feel like they belong to you?

Has a friendship outlasted its time but you don’t know how to gracefully let go?

Do you fall into the same roles in your family dynamics over and over again no matter how old you are and how much you’ve grown?

These are symptoms of negative energetic attachments (cords).

I first heard about decording when I was in my twenties.  I was stuck on a guy who wasn’t stuck on me.  You could say I was obsessed with this man.  I knew intuitively that traditional therapy wasn’t the route I was supposed to take.  I went to a psychic instead.  This wonderful woman taught me the process of decording.  Once I decorded from this man I was not bothered with the obsession again.

It was during the decording process that my psychic gifts appeared.  They were buried deep within myself waiting for an opportunity to come forth.  Decording is what awakened them.  Not everyone will have a dramatic response like I did.  You may feel a sense of freedom and relief after you decord though.

Each of us connects with one another on an energetic basis every time we interact.  When we smile at someone on the street we energetically connect.  Those connections are loving and do not affect us in a negative way.

When we are in deeper relationships those connections (cords) become stronger.  When the relationship dissolves those connections can stay intact and then start to drain us, energetically and physically.  Sometimes the relationship is with a child who keeps taking and taking.  You may not want to end the relationship but you may want to change how you relate to one another.  Decording can help you do that.

Benefits of Decording:

  • find relief from haunting thoughts
  • reclaim your sense of self
  • re-establish healthy energetic boundaries with the people in your life

Please consider coming to Della’s Decording Workshop on Saturday, October 14th.  Email me at della@innerpeacemovementstudio.com to register.  I have one on one decording sessions and telephone sessions available as well.  Find out more here.

For a full picture of Della’s healing services visit her website at www.innerpeacemovementstudio.com

Bear Medicine

This morning while meditating I had a vision.  This is what I saw.

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Out of the mist,
she came for me
this lumbering beast
the giant she-bear,
Ursa

on her back
I rode
up to her home
of Ursa Minor
where the
star elders
live

they whispered
love into my heart
and healed me
body
mind
and
soul

awakened in me
was the
memory of
why I was put
here so long ago. . .

to help others
find their
hearts
so they
can be made
whole

The rest of the day was spent in quiet contemplation . . . like a bear in a cave.  To find out more about Della and her services click here.

The Bigger Picture

change-begins-with-meDear Ones,

Do not be alarmed by the outcome of your election.  Whom ever you voted for trust that the highest good is in store for the planet.  You are not alone.  Even the darkest of nights can hold the most promising futures.  We invite you to look within and find the love in your heart.  Change, in all its forms, is a good thing.  You wanted change and you got it.  It may or may not be in the human body you voted for but change is upon you.  Embrace it.  Now is the time to shine your light brightly.  Now is the time to breathe deep, go within and love yourself.  Change begins with you.

Here are some suggestions to “be the change”:

  • breathe deeply
  • spend time in nature
  • connect with your animal friends
  • play with your kids
  • make love
  • take long delicious baths
  • cook and share a meal with your loved ones
  • have fun

All of these suggestions are to bring you into the present moment.  Fear is simply anxiety about the future.  Practice Presence.  It can be as simple as noticing the freckles on your child’s nose or smelling the fragrance of a flower.  Any time you bring yourself back into the NOW moment you empower yourself.  True power comes from within.

Remember the opportunity in every situation that occurs.  What will you choose:  Love or fear?

Della is a channel, healer, and hypnosis facilitator.  You can find out more about her here.

We Are The Reflection. . .

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Hello Dear Ones,

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My message is of peace this day.  You are coming close to a time of decision.  You think your decision needs to be about who will be your next leader.  Your choices are but a reflection of your times.  The leaders to be present them self in the most obvious of forms for your self-reflection.  One is a child in a mans body.  He represents your collective intellect.  He so desperately wants to be the king of the mountain that he pushes all the other kids out of the way to get there.  The other is a man in a woman’s body.  She represents your spiritual evolution.  She is showing you how the masculine is still out of balance on your world.    I do not say these things to offend but to have you look more closely at yourself.  Because, in the end, no matter who becomes your new leader it all comes down to who you are and not who they are.

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Who you are becomes the collective reflection.  To bring the change you are so desperately clambering for look within.  Your great sage Ghandi said, “Be the change that you wish to see in the world.”  No wiser words have been said. . .

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Inspired Vision

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artist: Susan Seddon Boulet

I was journaling this morning and asking my Spirit Guide Mother why I got sucked back into a place of longing and despair.  I was doing so well and then before I knew it I was lost.  Here is a poem I wrote about that journey.

Mother responded in this way:

You are never alone yet you see it not.  You are so easily distracted by the illusions of this world.  It is all fantasy.  Every bit of it.

What is real then, I ask?

You.

When you dwell in your heart you can see through the veil of illusion covering your eyes.

Can we transcend illusion during our lifetime?

Yes. 

By listening with your heart.

By seeing with your heart.

By breathing from your heart.

By acting from your heart.

Illusion will always be a veil covering your world.  It is up to you to choose to move the veil aside and live from a place of inspired vision.

Mother is right.  I haven’t been living from my heart lately.  I’ve been so distracted by what I don’t have in my life right now that I had forgotten about the things that I do have.  I had forgotten all the things that bring me joy.  Choosing joy over pain seems like such a simple thing . . .

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Touched By An Angel

angel-embraceOne day, while practicing yoga I began to weep.  Yoga will often bring up emotions stored deep in the cells of the body.  I had been weeping on and off for the past few months.  This day was different.  This grief was coming from deep inside me.  It felt different from anything else I had experienced up til then.  I was told by my Soul that I was carrying the collective grief of my family in my body.  This time it was coming up to be healed.  The grief was so intense that I asked for help.  “Please help me!” I cried.  “I can not do this any longer!”

Asking for help was something I didn’t do any longer for I had given up on God.   I no longer talked to my angels or my spirit guides (unless I was giving a reading.)  I turned inward for my Guidance.  My Soul became my go to for any assistance I needed.  I still believed in angels and spirit guides but I didn’t want to talk to them anymore.  I wanted to keep my spiritual conversations internal.  I thought if I did that I could simplify my spiritual life.  I no longer wanted to be the woo-woo girl.

In doing this I let go of an enormous asset to my life.  That day on the mat I surrendered and asked for help.  I immediately felt a presence and arms embrace me.  I sense it was an angel but it doesn’t really matter.  It was comfort exactly when I needed it.  Since then my grief has lessened with each passing day.  I’ve been experiencing moments of peace and joy.  I’ve been asking my spirit helpers to assist me in little things as well as the bigger issues.  You see, these Helpers don’t interfere in our lives.  They can’t.  Yet, they are ready and excited to help as soon as we ask.

We are not alone.  We are never alone.  So, I encourage you to ask for help. Ask your friends, your family, your angels and your guides.  Asking for help isn’t weakness.  Asking for help is one of the most empowering things you can do.

Della is an intuitive reader and hands on healer.   You can find out more about her here.

21 Day Well-Being Practice

imagesTomorrow I begin my 21 day well-being practice.  I have prepared for this experience for the past two weeks.  In times before I have jumped right in without a conscious plan.  I am doing things differently this time around.

I would have called this a cleanse or a detox in the past.  This time, I will be nurturing and gentle with myself.  I picked 21 days because it feels doable.  I’ve completed 40 day practices and that can become overwhelming and just too much.

My intention is to let go of habits that are keeping me distracted from being more creative.  For instance, I plan on connecting on social media once per day.  I would prefer to stay off completely but need to stay for the purposes of maintaining my business.  I plan on keeping to my personal page and not to wander like I usually do and end up getting sucked down the rabbit hole.  I will be continuing to write my blog as spirit moves me and posting occasionally on Instagram as that doesn’t seem to have the same addictive qualities as Facebook does for me.

I plan on getting up every morning and practicing yoga, meditation and then writing in my journal.  I’ve never been a consistent journal writer and I’ve always wanted to. I thought this would be a great way to begin the habit.

My diet will consist of whole foods that I can make myself.  I will be eliminating dairy and sugar for the 21 days.  I’m already mostly grain free, with the exception of wild rice and quinoa, so that is a no-brainer.  I plan on reading only that which is uplifting and creating art as passion strikes.  Going for walks in nature is also on the agenda.  Staying off Amazon prime television is also on the list.  It is so easy for me to find a show I like and then binge watch it for 3 or 4 days until the season is over.

My biggest fear is boredom.  The very thought of being bored stirs anxiety in my belly.  What am I afraid will show up in that space of not doing?  I hope to discover that over the next 21 days.  I plan on updating this blog post on a regular basis so feel free join my on my adventure.

Sat Nam, Namaste & Blessed Be!

Day 1

I’m not sure what I expected but I didn’t expect physical pain the first day out.  I’ve had some issues with my muscles in my shoulder that has bothered me since January of this year.  I only notice when I put a coat on.  The way my arm would swing back to reach for the sleeve seemed to aggravate it.  In the past two weeks it has been increasingly more painful.  Yesterday seemed to hit a crescendo.  I’m not sure if I noticed the pain more because I’m not as distracted as I normally am or if there is another reason.  Any way, I ended up taking ibuprofen, which I rarely ever do and it helped.

During my morning yoga practice I was intimately aware of how much grief I hold in my body.  It feels old, as far back as childhood maybe.  I breathed into it and invited what ever wanted to be released to do so in a gentle way.

Day 3

I participated in a spiritual journaling workshop today.  It changed my life.  It gave me so many ideas and inspirations on how to improve my writing through journaling.  The timing couldn’t have been better.  I will admit that some of the processes had me delving deep into the recesses of my dark spaces.  It was quite exhausting going there yet well worth the journey.

Day 6

I had a rough time the past couple of days.  The journaling has opened a Pandora’s box of stuff that I’ve avoided.  This is what I wanted right?  Yeah, but it is still hard an uncomfortable and I want to run.  That is my M.O.  While journaling I got an image in my head of being chased by wolves.  After being with that for 24 hours I came to realize that the wolves were my fear.  All my life I’ve run and there is a cliff up ahead.  I have three options to choose from.  I can either keep running, leap off the cliff and fly, or I can stop and hold my ground, call on my power and face my fear.  My first plan was to leap off the cliff but then I realized that would still be running . . .

I learned a writing technique at the workshop I attended called microfiction.  The parameters are to write a story beginning, middle and end in 20 words or less.  Here are two teeny tiny stories I wrote about my process.

The Choice

Running. “They” are close now. Cliff up ahead. Choose! Die or fly? I leap.

The Third Option

She stopped.  Breathing in power she held her ground.  They left, knowing they could only catch her while she fled.

Day 8

10438579_10207172573408452_1612294447253971217_nI jjournal every morning when I get up.  One of the tools I learned in the workshop I attended was to go out in nature and if some stick, rock, or feather calls to you pick it up and bring it home with you.

I picked up this acorn cap the other day.  I “heard” that this gift represented my Soul.  Here is what it had to say to me:

I am stronger than you know.  I protect you until you no longer need it.  When you do, I am there for you.  I am your soul and I am there for you.  You think the body is the container but actually the soul is the container.  The body houses spirit but I (Soul) contain it all.  I am vast and unlimited.  You often feel small and insignificant.  Tap into that vastness and your fear will dissolve.  When you become small it is because you are hiding.  No one can find you , even those who could use your help.  You allow only the amount (clients/students) in to squeak by financially.  You are smothering yourself in fear.  No wonder you are exhausted.  Tap into your vastness through the power of the Pavan Guru (breath).

Day 11

I haven’t written in a couple of days because I’ve been depressed.  My financial situation has gotten to a place where I have to consider making some changes.  That means finding another source of income (j.o.b.?)  I have been barely making a living at my healing business for the past 20 years and I can no longer live day-to-day like this.  The stress is bringing me down.  I’m not sure how I am going to resolve this yet . . . I have some ideas.

I’m angry because I’ve believed if you do what you love the money will follow.  I’m tired of blaming myself for not getting the formula right or that somehow I just don’t believe in the magic enough.  I’ve been in a dark place for the past couple of days.  I woke up today with a sense of pulling up my bootstraps and getting to work.  I’m not sure what my future will look like or how my healing business will be effected by these changes.

In the past couple of days I caught a glimmer of what many people experience every day with depression and emotional pain.  It’s as if your heart is breaking, your mind is numb, your physically exhausted and everything looks bleak.  I am lucky enough to have someone in my life (my boyfriend) who isn’t afraid of the dark places.  He understands what I am going through and instead of trying to fix the problem simply helped me see some hard truths.

On a lighter note . . . during those dark few days I fell back into the abyss of Facebook and I ate dairy.  What I discovered from both of these is that Facebook is still boring and that I when I did eat dairy I didn’t really enjoy it.   I’m back on track today at least as much as I can be with some life changing decisions on my plate and I’m only half way through this journey.

Day 12

In much better space today.  Had two wonderful healer friends work on me both yesterday and today.  I am so grateful.  I have two jobs lined up and can start right away.  Needed to let go of my Tuesday night yoga class in Minneapolis and may need to let go of Monday night as well.  Not as angry today . . .

Day 13

Feeling more hopeful.  Still don’t see the bigger picture but I know there is one there.  I let go of both my Monday & Tuesday yoga classes so I could have the space for my new jobs.  Luckily neither job should interfere with the lifestyle that I have created over the past few years.  I plan on keeping my Friday class in Eagan as it is the class that shows the most promise.  Neither angry or in grief today. . . 🙂

Day 15

A bit pissed off and in grief . . .

Day 16

I’ve been very tired.  I’ve been working at one of my new jobs full force.  (The second one starts next week.)  I’m not use to working in this way.  It may take time to build my endurance.  I still don’t fully understand why this is happening in the way that it is.  I have some glimmers of understanding. . . I think I have been too stubborn to see the signs.  I haven’t wanted to give up my dream of being a successful independent healing business owner.

Back in January my left arm started to bother me.  I didn’t always notice it so it wasn’t something I paid a lot of attention too.  It has recently (past two weeks) been bothering me to the point I can longer ignore.  I feel this a metaphysical issue so I keep asking my arm what it’s trying to tell me.  The left side of the body is the receptive side.  According to Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life the arm represents the capacity and ability to hold the experiences of life.  The pain goes up into my shoulder.  Shoulders represent what we are trying to shoulder and carry.  I’ve attempted to “carry” this business for the past 20 years and I have limped along.  It has finally gotten so desperate that I can no longer ignore the signs.

One of the jobs I’ve taken on is an online FBA (Fulfilled By Amazon) which is retail arbitrage.  I go out and shop the clearance isles of major department stores and ship the inventory to Amazon who sells it for me.  My boyfriend started this business back in April and I have hemmed and hawed to do it since the beginning.  I’ve seen him make it a success almost immediately.  He has given me some “seed money” to invest in inventory to get me started.  It will take about 3 months to produce an income I can draw from.

The second job is working about 20 hours a week (twice a month) for a friend who has an established business in Wisconsin.  This will be a part-time solution that takes me out-of-town for several days out of the month.  This one begins this next week.

What does this mean for my healing business?  It and I won’t be going anywhere.  The healing business will no longer be my main source of income.  It will be more like a side business that I do when people need me.  Just writing this brings me to tears.  Not because the business is changing but because the stress has been so intense around this business that I am relieved to finally let the stress go.

I have lived from day to day my entire 50 years.  No wonder I can no longer carry this burden.  I think my Soul, my High Self and my body has wanted me to make this change for a very long time.  It’s only now when I have no choice that I can see it.  In the mean time when ever my arm hurts I say “I am open to receive . . . ”

Day 18

Today is a new day!  I feel as if the intense stress I have been under for the past weeks (years!) is shifting.  I’m exhausted due to all the changes I am making so quickly.  At the same time my heart is filled with gratitude to all the people who have helped me out.  I put an email out to all my friends, clients and students inviting them to a deep discount on my telephone psychic readings.  Many of you have purchased readings and shared my info with loved ones.  I can breathe more freely now as my expenses are now mostly covered for the rest of the month.  I feel as if this has primed the abundance pump for me and I can now align with flow more gracefully.

I use the words gracefully intentionally here.  These past few weeks have been anything but.  This has definitely put my beliefs, faith and yogic tools to the test.  My constant practice throughout these past few weeks has been Kundalini Yoga and walking 3 miles a day.  I’ve let a few of my other intentions for this 21 day practice slide except for these two tools.  I think I would be an absolute mess without them.

Day 19

Today I head out of town for my 2nd job.  I’m looking forward to the adventure.  I feel so good its hard to believe I was in such pain just a few short days ago.  I had a client tell me the other day that I was a master at riding the roller coaster.  I guess that is true.  I think its time to switch rides all together.  How about the tunnel of love from here on out. . . .

Day 21

It’s hard to believe what has happened in the last 21 days.  My intention was to go deeper yet I had no idea what I was asking of myself.  It has been painful and challenging and enlightening and liberating and . . .

My life has been changed as a result.  I do not know where all these changes will bring me.  I am no longer frighted.  I am excited!

Della is a yoga teacher, writer, healer and artist.  You can find out more about her and her services here.